Day 245 My partner suggested I take a break from NoFap for a few days in order to clear my head over a couple of things. After the fight with my mom continued she said some nasty things about my girl. So I defended her. For the first time in my life I defended someone other than myself. I want to be an adult, so I'm going to have to step it up in order to do so. I applied for a bunch of jobs. Our plan is to save up as much money as possible and get the hell out of this entire state. We are just going to go somewhere else. We essentially eloped, so my girlfriend has now become my wife. The past few days have been very emotional for the both of us. I've been trying to keep her feeling safe, but it's rough. I only have about $90 in the bank. I don't have a job yet. I have a quarter tank of gas. I have a training for a security license tomorrow that is going to cost me $45. We've started gathering some things from around the house to sell. A lot of my old games and a lot of my wife's things. I hate watching her go through all her things. I hate that she feels she needs to sell stuff to be safe. But she doesn't really mind. It doesn't effect her as much as it effects me. After I finish the security course, I'm going to need to pay $90 in order to get finger-printed. So I need that money before I can even get the job. I applied to a few security jobs that don't require a license as well as some other jobs. But I can't just sit here and wait for the whole interview, hiring, orientation, 2 week later paycheck. I'm not going to give up. I just hate my options.