day3
todays day was really boring,idk how i break my routine,i had to sleep till 12 at night but tomorrow i was awake for like 4 am i was playiing game,i feel really bad,about it idk why time passes playing games,i go to sleep at 4 than wake at 8 than for two hours i was awake,i was listening to music and i fall asleep,and wake up at 3,i feel bad that i break my routine,i use 9gag also for fun and keep my mind distracted but now i am thinking i should stop using i and playing games too and use internet to post about my day here only.i live in india,i am in 12class ,in india future of child is decided from 12th,i always try to keep my concentration on studing but after 8 pm urges start it is very difficult to concentrate on study,the urges are so bad,most of the time i am alone in my room which make it further more difficult,idk how control last night i was about to do m but i stop myself it was very hard,my mind was like fuck fuck fuck release it come on,i wa snot able to fall asleep because of my mind stupid fantasies,i was trying my best to not touch my p,and it worked i fall asleep i wa shappy about it but sad that i break my routine.
