Craig'slist and Kik/Snapchat

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by ominous1, Jul 6, 2017.

  1. ominous1

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    My porn taste has developed into actually seeking out online relationships on Craigslist, then taking that over to Kik or Snapchat and basically photographing or videoing myself for somebody to masturbate to, man or woman, then I masturbate to the thought of that, or the video they send back. It's pretty sick and just wondering if anybody else has struggled with this. I am currently on day 11 which is basically my longest streak but still find myself wanting to check Snapchat or my porn email, which is a total trigger if I have a message waiting for me. If I can just cut this out I really don't look at actual porn on pornhub.
     
  2. ominous1

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    Also I feel like this is doing more damage than just looking at porn and masturbating, thoughts?
     
  3. jest

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    I used to seek out girls that had kik specifically for sexting and sharing pics/vids. I would say that it's the same thing as PMO, whether it's a "real" person you're connecting with or not, it's still pixels on a screen and soon enough you'll want more and more extreme content to look at.

    Delete all your accounts immediately, is my advice. It's probably more addictive than regular P imo, but it doesn't mean you can't beat it.
     
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  4. The_Common_Sinner

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    I do this as well unfortunately :/ , just with guys, I can say that it is more destructive than porn but I don't mean that porn isn't destructive at all. This involves false hopes that someone out there really likes you, but to be honest, it's just your dick they want. I know because I do as well. I could go on and on about the things I've done but that wouldn't be helpful for you here, so I just want you to know that you are not alone with this. Things do get better, more often than not, but don't lose hope.

    You got friends here that will support you. :) Cheer up man.
     
  5. LavaMe

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    I haven't sent images of myself, but what I really enjoyed was Craigslist, Tumblr or anything where I thought it was a real person I was 'connecting' with. I think I liked that because it allowed me to have a more realistic fantasy to M to. I think for me PMO is in part about seeking intimacy with people. So anything 'real' is more attractive.

    My suggestion is to delete all your accounts. I finally did and feel much better having done so.
     
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  6. sparkywantsnoPMO

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    I haven't made it that far down that road, but when I stopped porn, I was drawn to Craigslist for a time. I quickly recognized that it was not good for my recovery, and I'm now about a month clean of it.
     
  7. ominous1

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    You guys are right, I need to delete these accounts. I'll do it now
     
  8. ominous1

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    I just deleted all that shit. Some of those accounts were open years.
     

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  9. jest

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    Great job man, let's kick PMO out of our lives one step at a time.
     
  10. sparkywantsnoPMO

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    Put a check in the W column today! Nice work!
     
  11. squilliam

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    this is huge... good work man!
     
  12. Awesome to hear, well done my friend!
     
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  13. SuperFan

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    Man, I can't even begin to tell you ... Craigslist ads were the crack-cocaine of my addiction. It was so much stronger and powerful than porn, because I could put up an ad with a scandalous picture of myself and just get an ego-hit off the responses. The feeling of validation was electrifying. I'm ashamed to admit how many anonymous sexual encounters I had because of that site. Nearly all of them left me feeling emptier than when I posted the ad.

    One of the best reasons to get away from CL is that almost all the attractive women are actually gay men trying to catfish straight guys. I've personally been catfished four different times by gay men. For some reason, a large number of gay men have a fascination with turning on straight guys by pretending to be women--like it validates their feminine feelings, or something. They don't get the same excitement out of the m4m ads, so they try to hook straight guys into communicating with them, sending pics, etc.

    One guy basically raided the FB account of a real woman, sending me all sorts of candid pics that made me believe she was real. Another tried to blackmail me and ended up telling my wife about my online behavior. I ended up having to get a detective involved and pressed harassment charges against him.

    As much pain as that site brought me, I admit I still have times when I think it'd be exciting to post a new ad ... just to "see who else might be out there." In my ads and in these casual encounters, I could be myself sexually without any fear of judgment. That was a pretty liberating feeling, even though it caused me so much destruction. On the balance, though, I couldn't be happier to be away from that stuff.
     
  14. ominous1

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    I appreciate all the support, thanks y'all. It's actually not difficult like I thought it would be, to get rid of these accounts. It's a relief.
     
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    Superfan, I can totally relate to everything you are saying. I've wasted so much time, so many hours back to back and I just want my life back
     
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  16. LavaMe

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    The sad irony is in seeking this freedom we became slaves. We aren't free at all. We can't take it or leave it. We have to have it.
     
  17. HappyDaysAreHereAgain

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    There are lots of big wins here, both for those who have deleted and those who will read about you.
    This thread encourages us all to take our next step.
     
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  18. Jabba Le'Butt

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    Just cut it out, delete everything you can that's causing this, get a hobby you enjoy to clear up your mind but don't forget to see women as the missing part of yourself.
     
  19. ominous1

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    I guess it's been 5 or 6 days since I deleted these accounts. Feel washed over with feelings of regret, hopelessness, loss, it is hard to put in to words. I understand it's just my addicted brain. It's like just knowing I don't have the safety net of PMO and my pathways underneath me almost makes me panicky. I am on my longest streak but these last few days have been the hardest on this run, and it's weird because I have had no desire to PMO and just thinking about that possibility makes me shudder with anxiety.
     
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  20. SuperFan

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    I used to always get these attacks of shame and guilt where I'd purge and delete everything ... except I almost always kept a secret email account, just in case. It was always the one thing I seemed unwilling to let go of.

    When that was discovered by my (now ex) wife, I did the right thing and deleted it--but it felt like losing a limb. My addict desperately wanted to hold onto that one final link to that world.

    But after a couple weeks, I realized I didn't miss it as much as I thought I would. Hang in there, it gets better.
     

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