I started a no PMO 90 day challenge just over a month ago and for the first 2 weeks, it was easy. I was fully confident that I could go 90 days without PMO even after being addicted to it for some time now. Once I got to the third week I noticed my mood changing. I was frustrated and easily aggitated. My family noticed this change in me. My wife asked what was wrong. My mother called to check on me cause she could sense that something wasn't right. I was extremely frustrated because here I was trying to make this change, and it was creating an entire new set of problems. At 19 days of no PMO, I crashed and burned. I gave in. So here I am after a week off going completely off the rails and I'm ready to start a new 90 day challenge. If any of you would be willing to be an accountability partner for me I would appreciate it tremendously. I need someone I can check in with daily and discuss this with. If any of you are willing, please message me. Thanks for listening guys.
Jason 31, I'm new to the website and forum. I have struggled with this since I was 9 or ten years old, and I'm 46 now. I've had episodes of being "clean", I made it 3 months, that was the longest. So, totally sympathize. I've been a Christian for 16 years, and it's worse when you feel like you should be doing things right and you still fail in this area. But it's basically like a drug addiction, there's stuff going on in the brain that's causing a chemical dependency. So we have to be aware of this, and retrain ourselves with new habits. As believers, we know that there is constant tension between the fleshly desires and the Holy Spirit, so we have to become spiritual warriors. I'd be willing to check in most nights and respond to any of your posts. Maybe we can encourage each other to stick with it this time. It's been a week for me now, since I've abstained from PMO. I'm married also, and at some point, I'm going to have to have a difficult conversation with my wife to gain her support with this. She caught me 13 years ago viewing porn, and I said I'd quit. I haven't admitted to her since then that I've viewed it since then. For me, it has to be a period of total abstinence to "reboot", I know that for sure. Last time I went 90 days, my wife and I weren't getting along anyways, so there wasn't any sexual activity. Lately, our marriage has improved again, so this will be tough!
Jason 31, how was your day? I've been spending time on this blog when I feel tempted. It's been 7 days no PMO for me. Working on a 90 day hard reboot as well.
