Crawling out of a ditch

Day 52

No urges today and no relapses. Overall things picking up and the future looks bright. Feeling great. See you all tomorrow.

 

Day 53

Woke up a bit late, but nevertheless probably the most productive day in my entire life. I managed to get a huge amount of exam revision done (which would normally have taken a week), I spent an hour helping my younger brother with his studies and amazingly I even found time to relax and play playstation. It's a weird thing: when you are more productive, time feels much slower and you find you are able to relax more when you work more. The relaxation also feels much better because it doesn't have that underlying feeling of worry or guilt tagged along with it.

No urges at all either. I'm being careful, because I know full well that it becomes more difficult to abstain at this stage but as long as I keep myself occupied, this could be the end of masturbation for good.

 

Day 58

Haven't posted for a few days because it's been a busy week and things have been slipping a bit. Don't have much time to explain but I am realising more and more my potential, but can see myself working hard, but not enough to be the best I can. It's a bit depressing but I'm staying hopeful and I continue to try to improve.

As for nofap, unfortunately I relapsed this morning just because an urge has been bugging me all week. I'm ready to start afresh this week though and hopefully beat my PB.

David

 

Day 66

Oh dear. Haven't posted in 8 days although it has felt like longer. It's coming to that time of year when exam stress levels rise exponentially and I'm just realising that I'll have to work like a demon for the next 2 months in order to meet my targets. I've been relapsing quite a lot lately just to take my mind off the stress but also realise that I need to deal with this problem at the same time as my work in order to have the best chance of success. I'll try to stop masturbating but we'll see what happens in the following days (if I even get round to posting that is).