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Discussion in 'Significant Other Journals' started by Queenie%Bee, Sep 24, 2018.
It's so insulting and hurtful :/
I was “ banging “ him lol
Little to no effort on his part
Haha. People complain about boring old missionary position. For us, it's a gold star day on the calender...
@GhostWriter used to say PAs are a lousy lay. Is that what I hear y'all saying?
I HAVE TO PUT THIS IN MY JOURNAL!!!
I just got a call from his sister .
He called her and said it “ I have a porn addiction , it happened before and it came back recently “
They had along conversation, she told him she was going to reach out to me .
She told him he need to take the boys out and him to tell HIS story , as their father .
We had a good conversation, as my SIL she isn’t judging anything . Her husband is an alcoholic, sober 5 years did all the work .
She asked what I was thinking .
I said I was happy for HIM
THat that must have been REALLY hard for him and freeing at the same time .
As for “Us” I told her there isn’t an US . I don’t know if there will ever be an US again . The damage of the lying and hiding , I think for me has come to the end of the road .Ill never be lied to again . To ensure this , I can not be with him .
I care about him . I want him to get the help and support he needs . But not from me in that way .
I think sex for PA’s is all in their minds. You gals are right they use our bodies as receptacles, but in the PA’s mind they are the most attentive and attuned partners you will ever find.
Funny how sex only lasts well a few minutes...in straight missionary position.
Susannah...I hear ya on the Gold Star Day.
Sadgirl...it is insulting and hurtful
Of course I didn’t sleep tossing and turning . I was thinking how well and good he told someone , anyone .
Of course I’m still perplexed why he hadn’t reached out to ME .
I know it’s Shame spiral .
Regardless of what he told his sister , he’s had 2 weeks home alone . With a laptop .
Different story all together if he returned the laptop , sent me proof of returning . Was remorseful to ME . Tmrw is going to be VERY awkward.
Blech I’m sick to my stomach . Weird symptoms are coming back . Ugg .
Hugs to you. I know today is going to be a tough one.
He. Is. Not. Here.
He wasn’t here at 9:30a when my oldest texted him that we’d be home in an hour and he needed help unpacking his car simple to to my oldest “ I’m not home “ His duffle is gone . So he either left early this morning or late last night . F him .
He has the home laptop which is the only one all the banks and CC recognize. Ugg now I’m worried about the money . His only shoes missing are his slide ins . Why do I bother caring . I was HOPING for a long overdue verbal conversation .
Of course I’ve hidden all that from the boys . But they haven’t seen him in 2 weeks . Wtf is he doing . They expected him to be here . And the asshole never put the AC in bedroom so now my boys have to do it . Trying to ground myself but this is HARD . I would much prefer an awkward AF conversation over more Stonewalling.
Thinking of you....
Thanks love ❤️
My youngest just told me he texted his da “ yo where you at thought I’d see you today headed to Ryan’s in an hour “
“ oh ok I probably will see you when I get out of work tmrw “
Never said where he was .
Stupid . Immature. Manchild .
He’s a dick . His sister called to see how the day went and if we had a good conversation. I said he’s not here . I have no idea where he is or what he’s doing .
So unbeknownst to me she started texting him saying me and the kids were worried about him ( ugg I wasn’t really worried about him , she was ) SHE reached out to him concerned that it was 10:30 n none of us know where he is .
Not sure why you are involving my sister. I will be home late morning tomorrow to do a few things and get ready for work. We have inventory. I was giving you space on 1st day back. I didn't want to be around on my day off. Stop involving my sister. It is none of her business. And I already had to explain some things to her a few days ago . Stop involving my sister she shouldn’t know anything.
Of course I didn’t respond .
If he hadn’t lied to his sister constantly over the last couple weeks she wouldn’t have started to call me . Gfy .
Once again , HES upset , with ME .
Gah let’s just have a conversation and then GTFO . Keep showing me the REAL you . Cold . Heartless .
Hey just sending you my prayers and thoughts.
Thank you ❤️So obv telling his sister didn’t mean what I thought for him ?
This mother fucker .
Same shit . Same story.
RI - strip club . He lied n lied on the 11th time he told the truth .
Yup...it’s truly mind boggling. I’m actually finding my PA quite interesting with his lies. Maybe I’ve detached, but it seems when I loose my shit, it delights him. I’ve decided to let him go and dig his own freakin grave.
I am just beside myself . I had hoped we could’ve had this conversation in a different way . But , he is “not an addict , that he WAS an addict before . But now he can handle a little porn . “His mindset is so effed up . He can’t believe a divorce will have to happen Because of lies ? FFS . Is he actually a sociopath? Used “ caged husband “ used “ you want to lock me in the attic to keep me perfect”
He used “ you want a honeymoon to last 30 years “
He doesn’t know me . And I don’t know him anymore . Brought up finances . Me not working when I said , so you spent the family money on strip club and laptop . Raised his voice “ THATS MY MONEY IM THE ONLY ONE WORKING YOUR PAYCHECK PAYS THE PHONE BILL “
Omg . I can’t . I don’t know how to do the next steps .