So , he asked on way to visit his mom while holding my hand if I still felt a disconnect. I said “ yes “ he said “ but I’m not doing anything “ sooo I said “ do I wish that I could snap my finger and feel better about things /us , Ofcourse but that’s not how this works , so remember even something small can set us way back , something I have no control over “ So throughout the night he would jokingly snap his finger , it was funny . We had a great visit , he was attentive and careful of not saying anything immature, yes he can be VERY IMMATURE. So we get home he makes us a couple shipyards w cinnamon. Acts of service GREAT ! An hour later he gets up and says I think I’m going to have another beer , I said ya me too can you make me one too . He literally came back with only a beer for himself . ITS THESE THINGS THAT REMIND ME HOW FUCKING SELFISH OF A PERSON HE CAN BE !!! So I asked why he didn’t make me one too ? He literally had no answer . So I said when I make everybody dinner tmrw I’ll make sure I “forget” yours . Went to bed , not mad but kinda like wtf you were doing so good . Like I swear he’s kinda fucking OBTUSE sometimes. It’s NOT about the beer we all know that , it wasn’t about the psub we all know that .