I mean no offence in this post. I understand that people do like to practice this sexual kink in their real lives and I am in no way criticising this fetish. But... I need to get this off my chest. I’ve been watching porn for a very long time now. Coming up to 10 years if not already 10 years. I started off with the basic stuff. Now I’m at a point where I feel shameful. I can’t even enjoy it anymore. I progressed through categories. Started off with just nude pictures, then progressed on to more extreme stuff throughout the years. Which is leading me up to the point which I’m at now. I’m addicted to interracial cuckolding. Here comes the embarrassing part. I was using a social media streaming site. I thought I was in a private room but the room was open. So there I am.. streaming the internet in an open room. Me being a porn addict it was almost inevitable that I would stumble across a porn website sooner or later. So now I’ve loaded up a cuckold scene. People have joined the room whilst I’m watching this filth. They’re fucking laughing at me calling me a cuckold and all kinds of names. Needless to say my heart almost fell out my ass. (Thank the heavens that my camera wasn’t on, or at least I fucking hope not) The first thought I had was “imagine if that was my friends and family that had seen me doing that”. I got the worst feeling ever. I can’t even explain it. It was just massive amounts of shame. And the thing that really bothers me the most. I DONT even like this fetish! It’s not me at all. I get turned on by it when I’m watching it but the thought of doing it in real life doesn’t appeal to me at all. That’s what I hate about it soo much. I don’t even want to watch it but it seems to be the only thing that can even get me aroused anymore. Normal porn just don’t cut it anymore. Anyone in a similar situation? At least there was one positive to come from that total fuckup. It’s motivated me some more to quit. I just had to get that out my system. Probably one of the lowest points in my life.