Cuckold fantasies - My history

Hello guys, first of all, sorry for my english. I started Nofap because i did PMO for almost 15 years, and i was in a very complicated situation, i was already going to swing clubs, doing a lot of shit in my life, but things got worst. I felt in love for a girl, and she also for me, she was cute, only 19 years old and, and amazing human being, but when i was thinking about having sex with her i always wanted to see her having sex with other guys... i felt horrible for that, i thought that i was a kind of maniac for thinking that way (in that moment i didn't know that this kind of fantasies was induced by PMO).

So i broke up with her, because i didn't want to think about that anymore. I thought that my fantasies were because she was cute and pretty (like the girls i was watching on that kind of movies). But then i started to think about that with every girl that i was dating.

I really felt horrible, i thought that i was not the same person anymore, didn't want get in any relationship because of that...

So i started to look for some help on internet, and i found nofap community and saw that a log of guys were struggling with the same problem as me and i started to do nofap to try to recover myself.

I did nofap easy mode for 1 week and failed, because a lot of girls sent me na ked pictures on whatsapp and i relapsed, felt horrible...

So i made a decision in my life, that was really hard but i knew that was necessary to bring my mind back to normal... i decided to do nofap hardmode, so i blocked these kind of girls in all apps and started to think just in my recovery, in my heath.

I'm now on my 30th day of nofap hardmode, and i feel like never before, everything changed in my life, and i already don't have this kinds of thoughts like before, i also met a girl, she is really special, i told her about everything that i was doing and all my past, she understood and she is respecting my condition, we went to the cinema and i had no fantasies, no sexual thoughts.

I'm really happy as never, and i want to thank you guys for all the messages here in this forum.

I have +90 days for my reboot, so i hope everything will be really fine.

Stay strong and thanks again.

 

thank you so much

 

thank you! i just need to do fasting, all the other things i'm doing everyday