CURSED SOUL

Hi ,am minho from india.
I am relatively new here although I knew about this place since last year I was a bit reluctant to come and share cause I thought it was not necessary, maybe it still is not(I don't know) but I came here cause there's no other place for people like us!! And I know the journey of being a man is a solitary one but we aren't men yet, are we? Our soul has been held hostage by our virtual mother and her million lies and deceptions! We crave for attention and love like a newborn cries for her mother's care and milk! So we remain as children but even after drinking over and over again, we aren't satisfied as it were an illusion! And yes it is an illusion ! We crave and crave and we drink and drink but our bellies stay empty and our mind stays hypnotized to understand that we are losing our life force ! Sitting in front of a screen I saw dreams of sensuality! The electromagnetic emissions illuded my heart and over the time i became possessed! And it was never real ! As she deluded the sense of reality, the remnants of my cursed mind tried to figure out!
"What is wrong with me ?"
I figured out ,but it was too late .
It's been 11 years ,maybe more ,I don't even remember how long it's been since everyday has been the same! I stab myself over and over again onto her commands but death never came! She promised so much but never delivered a bit! Instead a million leeches latched onto my body as they suck my soul my sense of shame and morality is lost and I did a lot of evil acts! But now its enough, I don't even want the real milk ,I just want my soul back so I can live a little , experience and participate in the real world!
I want to be happy ! And I want to be a man not a slave !
And I promise to myself that I will never go back to her!
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Thanks sire , I will follow those instructions and study as you have shared, I just completed the book 'your brain on porn',it was an eye opening study.

 

Ah thanks bro
Mother gaia bless us all
It's not poetry or anything just a mingling of words !
And Let's hope we crave poetry and not porn !

 

sadly i have failed today! am very dissapointed !