Daily Intention Thread : "Today, I am... + POSITIVE AFFIRMATION"

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by 2525, Sep 12, 2017.

  1. Sterkte

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    Today I am pursuing my dreams! And also going to the doctor cause I'm worried I have testicular cancer or something.
     
  2. kingbob3

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    Day 10.

    Today I feel a little low.
    Got occupied this morning so could not post. But here I am done with the day and going strong.
    Its an achievement, 10days streak. I must say that its a feeling worth celebrating. In this last 10 days I was very careful with my diet and hit the gym on every day. Did self affirmation first thing in the morning and last thing before calling it a day. Most importantly I wrote on this forum. It really helps, because I really take time and religiously write my true feelings of actually how it feels to be on that particular day.
    So today I was feeling very low. Like life is worthless there is nothing to live for. Maybe my mind is sad cuz its not getting dopamine. So I slept a lot today and then I hit the gym did some weigh lifting got the testosterone pump and felt good then took a cold shower and here I am writing on this forum. Well since I am experienced with a long streak of 66days I know that there are times when you feel down and those feelings can extend upto few days also but I must be prepared with a strong regime to fight them and overcome them. This happens because mind is rebooting, we are most vulnerable at this point of time a little trigger can end to a relapse. I just hope I get over this as soon as possible. Day got by with sleeping now in the night I have to fight. These small fights will reboot me and reboot me to the activities I do in those trying times I need my system to release the dopamine but not after PMO but after something productive which I want to develop. This can be like a hypothesis what ever skill a man wants to master practice those skills in these trying times and you will master it with joy, eventually making that skill your passion.
    Enough for the day.
    Will post again in the morning. Wish me luck.
    Night Night.
     
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  3. path_finder

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    Hello

    Today I am negative. So what does Nofap Bring us? WE still dont fuck. So whats This all about? WE cant even fap Out Cock. I feel Not fapping made me productive. But so does quigong. WE are denying US all Lust. Why not masturbate once a week for half an Hour? Maybe all porn is Bad. But living without fuck nor fap is Not easy.
     
  4. llortaton

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    My face will look beautiful after quitting PMO.

    My self esteem will rise.


    My will, will hit the moon.

    My courage and intelligence will be as tall as the Burj Khalifa.

    I willlllllll look amazingggggg!!!
     
  5. rafael33

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    Today I am HAPPY. :)

    It's the first day of the rest of my life. It's amazing.
     
  6. path_finder

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    Being vegan Helps also.
    Today I am exhausted and tired but a little Bit happy.
     
  7. My Best self

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    Aristotle says Studying gives pleasure...

    I think porn gives suffering cause There is nothing to learn! Today I am!
     
  9. kingbob3

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    Day 12.

    Today I am flying like a bird. A very good feeling of achievement. Even the morning wood gave me a pride that "yes baby females will go weak on knees for you, you are awesome, and I am not going to touch YOU at all in a filthy way, you gotta stay that way and make me the hero I deserve to be, beast mode on"

    Well I came up with these two quotes on the subreddit this morning sharing em with you all to get pumped up and be at your level best in all the myriad aspects of your life. FYI do not forget to hit the gym, cold showers, healthy protein rich diet, meditation, journaling on this forum and a solid belief that you can do this, normal people like you and me achieve this. So say to yourself "Yes I can." and do not forget you are AWESOME.


    "Imagine how incredible you'd be one year from now if you stopped fantasizing about a better life and instead actively started building it."

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    “Suffer the pain of discipline or suffer the pain of regret.” – CT Fletcher

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  10. Di.Do.555

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    Today i am feeling horrible but i know this too shall pass.
     
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  11. path_finder

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    Different cultural currents float together in this Internetforum.

    however… Today I am Feeling ashamed, my head is red. The blood seems to be stuck there… because I watched some Scenes from porn without fapping… But damn I feel so fucking depressed just by watching others fuck... and I am ashamed that i watched it...

    But one Thing I don't know. Would the Woman I like love me, if I would never have watched such a Video? But it can never be found out.
    Would I be more confident, successful by now? I am already the master of my life, I took over Control years ago... now the nofap generally gives me more time to be productive. But will it stay that way? I don't know… but I hope so... Sometimes I would like to fap badly… but I would have to find out the Right Ratio of a) being productive and b) letting out my urges in a sustainable and rational way without fucking the rest of my life up or changing my personality and character in a way where I don't like them to be…

    Today my Dream is to become an author. But not like those who only talk About it cause I got Talent.
     
  12. Jajadeja

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    I choose easily n successful free from mastrabuting, porn within Aug 31st 2019, so that I can take care of my health , my career, my family and my dreams.
    Life is short I have to hurry and complete in this lifetime ...
     
  13. kingbob3

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    Day 13.

    Today I had a narrow escape in the wee hours of the night. The only thing which kept me from watching anything explicit was that I had to start from the day0 here in these series of posts. I must say this forum really helps in this way, if I have even one audience who follows or likes my post I am accountable for him. I believe humans makes mistakes someday or the other I might loose my zeal and fall in the pit but I assure that I will rise and be resilient because nofap is not a one time thing its an art of living, its the attitude of not giving up and fighting and moving ahead in life progressively, thats the only way to develop such a positive habit, 66days is just a benchmark which will bolster my belief of benefits of such an amazing habit and 90days will make me reinforced with that belief.

    Now I will come to the point why I felt weak on knees last night even though I have very strict hindrance mechanism in my cell phone to trigger any possible relapse. No social media handles, no incognito mode, no explicit reading content, not even any pictures on my browsing app(mozilla firfox has this feature to even block any image on the screen, it really helps).
    So what triggered my urges and filled my mind with filth.
    Profanity. Yes.
    Thats why this journey is so important to entwine it with spiritualism and in my case with my religious faith. Mahatma Gandhi had three monkeys personifying the moral habits of man which meant not to watch anything bad, not to hear anything bad and not to say anything bad. If you are on the journey of reboot you need to kill all the sources which can trigger your mind to your old filth. Profanity is one of the cardinal elements which let us go in that state when we start visualizing the actual meaning of the word. Someone said that "Every Word is a Universe". You don't believe me, pic any random word and delete it from your vocabulary for a day. For eg remove the letter RED from your vocab for a day you will get a sense what I am saying. Everything which can be described as RED will be gone, you cannot visualize now blood if Red is not there, you cannot visualize your favorite red colored dress, that red lipstick and etc etc.
    So choose your words sensibly make sure your language is pure and does not trigger any possible immoral stuff, when you will speak good you will visualize good and everything will be in sync with the universe you want to create for yourself.
    So remember my Day12 post I was very excited throughout the day and proud for my achievement, then I was listening to some music which didnt had profanity but close to it, like the lyrics helped me to visualize some stuff, and to add to my visualization music was accompanied by a short clip of the music video on the music app. I googled the models name, and then things went on and so forth my dopamine deprived brain got a little hit, and then I went to such an extent that I started watching the models photoshoot videos, now I was like lets do this, so again I googled something immoral related to the model and was almost there to watch explicit content. Guess who came to the rescue, my browsing app blocked all the images and my brain immediately said to me bro what are you gonna scribble in your morning journal at the NF Forum, and since I had not watched any explicit content I gained my senses drank a lot of water in the middle of the night and slept.
    Indeed it was a Narrow Escape.
    It is difficult to fight with yourself because you love yourself way to much.
    What helped? My traps which I have implanted in case I travel that road, also a lot of water. And its worth it being on the other side and giving so much of time describing the event in such a detail.
    I know a lot of days will come in the future when I will be down and weak its inevitable human nature and for that I want a strict strong regime full of traps which can help me trigger my nofap consciousness when I am weak so that I dont end up with a relapse.
    Any input or suggestions are welcome. Please do write to me, Need Help.
     
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  14. path_finder

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    Today I won't PMO because I did that since I was 17. Before that I started fapping with 14. I didn't get enough Sleep, Relaxation, calm mood, Music, think of all the movies I could've watched, the books I could've read, the language studies, writing as a Hobby... studying at University.

    Fuck you porn, forever and ever! Never again will I watch this filth, as hot as the women may be, the men look like puke.
     
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  15. path_finder

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    I Broke my promise to Not watch This filth but from now on I will live Up to IT.
     
  16. kingbob3

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    Day 14.
    Today I feel all pumped up.

    “When you have a Goal, When you have a vision, Everything becomes easy" - Arnold Schwarzenegger

    and that is the quote of the day. I watched an amazing talk this morning on youtube and it got me all pumped up cuz I was able to visualize my journey of this reboot. Since I have tried reboot so many times I know its difficult we are humans we are vulnerable and some times the filth which is in our brain reminds us of the alluring world of explicit content which is just one touch away.
    That mindset needs to be changed and thats all, you have accomplished the reboot. Thats the bigger picture you have to look upon. If in the middle of the journey of reboot any trying time comes and you choose to do something progressive like hitting the gym, enjoying your hobby, reading books, taking a nap, taking a nature stroll, doing meditation/yoga or any thing which teaches you something instead of all forms of degrading self harming stuff then attaboy you have arrived. You just need to reinforce that habit to make it permanent and thats pretty much it, so that every time you are sad, depressed, angry, down, bored, anxiety, rejected you do the same progressive stuff instead of the self harming ones, like porn, smoking, drug abuse, alcohol, even sex. This is the whole bigger picture of the process of reboot. 21days, then 30days then 66days and finally 90days they are just a benchmark. You just need to arrive and be home albeit achieving these benchmarks will help you to erase the browsing history of your brain thats why its important you see.
    I'll try to give you all a gist how to visualize the bigger picture. Yesterday India successfully launched a space program to the Moon by the name "Chandrayan 2", this led me to mull upon how the Moon would have formed. I did some research and there are thousands of videos available on the youtube describing the formation of the moon. The bigger picture which hit me was that all the terrestrial bodies in our solar system are spherical in shape, how? let me explain.
    I got to know about that billion of years ago some foreign body hit the Earth distorting its shape and a lot of Earths debri went into the space, now Earth is revolving around the Sun cuz of its gravitational pull, the debri did the same but every mass has its own gravitation pull as well so due to Earths greater pull the debri started revolving around the Earth also. Now if you have seen a potter making a pot you can visualize what I am talking about, potter rotates the clay puts his hands on the rotating clay and it takes the spherical shape. So the distorted Earth regained its spherical shape because it is continuously revolving around the Sun due to its gravity and same happened with the debri in space revolving around the Earth, after billions of years of this revolution this debri took a spherical shape and hence the Moon was formed. From the subtle art of pottery we can take the bigger picture of why all the planets have spherical shape, cuz in some frame its all clay.

    Now coming back to the reboot, bigger picture should be what will you achieve after this reboot, completely transformed brain and a new mindset of living the life in a progressive manner.
    Do watch the talk by Mr.Schwarzenegger and get all pumped up.
     
  17. path_finder

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    No PMO today because I had that this morning and I regret it by now immensely…

    Winded up thought, no clear thinking, no getting to the Point with my thought and speech. Once again: Thanks, porn you metaphorical douchebag!
     
  18. kingbob3

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    Day 15.

    “Failure is an Event, Its not a Person." - Zig Ziglar.

    I am experiencing some mood swings these days like a depression. Sad feeling is lingering in my brain. But I am a human not an animal, I have the knowledge why I feel that way, dopamine. I have kept feeding my brain with that drug for too long that if gets deprived for few days it starts getting lugubrious. If my brain can get this message get it clear mate that "Its been so long that you've been driving my life and ruining everything which I love, you have become a spoiled brat like a truant giving excuses to skip school. Get this straight mate that in order to grow and become a responsible citizen you have to be tamed, you have to learn getting comfortable with getting uncomfortable. If I fly in an airplane I expect the pilot to be disciplined to take off and land safely, because my life is in his hands, he has the responsibility of people on board. Similarly my dear brain you have the responsibility too. You are responsible for me. Make me progressive so I can take responsibility of myself and then others in the society I live in, thats the only way people will respect you. So grow up and act responsibly."

    Yesterday I was testing the waters, when you are dopamine deprived and you are on a regime your brain works in mysterious ways to get the dopamine hit, since I have made it very difficult to get access to any pictorial content which can trigger a relapse(video content totally inaccessible), so I started hearing some bawdy podcast and since the topic was interesting I kept on hearing it for half n hour at the same time browsing some more topics on the podcasts. Now I know its bad for my nofap, and this testing of waters can work against me totally, still I did hear it completely. Thats why I need professional help what should be my frame of mind that I can say finally that yes I have arrived home.
    Any suggestion is welcome.
    Until then going strong with amazing 15days of meeting my goals.
     
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  19. Triton.Supreme

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    Today I remembering where value is found in life, and what is asked of the one who wants it
     
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    Today I will not use Porn, because I just relapsed and it feels awful. Awful has no place in my life anymore, life is too precious for awful.
     
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