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Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by 2525, Sep 12, 2017.
Today, I will fight.
Today I am brave.
Today I will Not watch IT Nor fap. I reread my Post and kept hängig Here: "Porn is Not auch an innocent pleasure for consumers as WE once thought!"
Porn and fapping Cost me many years of success in social interactions and at university! I Wish I would have knwon earlier. Now I Hope to never fap and watch porn again!!! So at least Future gets good.
Today, I will stay away from P & M because I want to rediscover what it is to feel normal again
Today it feels great to have identified a whole lot of toxic influences in my life and fighting the battle to remove them. I am imperfect, and I forgive myself for that, but it feels good to fight the good fight
Today I will not watch porn or masturbate BECAUSE I am afraid that porn is bad for concentration and bad for the volume of the Grey matter in the brain, also it makes me depressive for no reason and takes away precious time.
If porn takes away Grey matter from the brain, it is basically a form of Anti-Meditation.
Today, I will set myself up for success.
Today I am depressive since I casted a glimpse at porn with no fapping accompanying it... damnit! I shouldn't have looked at this.
Today I am happy to have resisted urges and become even better at it. Life's going on its best way yet, can't wait!
Today I am happy that I have interesting work to do, and its a huge challenge. Porn takes away from that effort in a big way.
Porn makes dumb.
Today I will stand up and fight.
Tonight I make it through another full day without PMO, and I exercise to sublimate the energy I'm not spending on that evil, awful habit.
Tonight I'm thankful for God's blessings and for the strength he's sent me to make it through my first FOUR days.
Best of luck to ALL of you tonight
Today, for possibly the first time in my life, I looked in the mirror and told myself "I'm a good person".
This is just heartbreaking, but I know where you're coming from completely. I struggle to not see me as a low, dirty, awful person sometimes, due to this messed up PMO habit. Best of luck on your path man.
Thank you, friend! It was a surreal moment for me. I actually managed to smile as I said it, too. Will now try to make it a daily habit.
Today I Wonder whether its Just Placebo.
I also think about the studies that say porn fapping is Bad for You.
And the catholic mevieval thought that people need to decide - for mind or for pleasure and Body.
What do You think?
Today I will not watch Porn because i hate it so much.
Today I will not watch p because I want to experience life.
Today I fapped again, I failed at not fapping. I did it without porn out of a spontanteneous mood. I thought: "Oh this feels great". But when it was over, afterwards, I felt ashamed, even no one saw me doing it and no one heared it. I don't feel healthier, I don't feel better in my head, I just feel relieved down under (at my dick and balls). But I got a serious headache now. What does that again mean? This lack of self Control is really a Problem. First I quit being vegan and changed for vegetarian, then I ate too much Food, then I didn't practice quigong in the morning… Fapping to porn is just one of many factors that make us less productive! So my ideal productive day would be: Eating vegan and healthy, practicing Quigong at 7:00 by myself for one hour, not watching Prison Break in the evening for 2 Hours at a time but read instead or cook something. My worst productivity day would be: Get up at 6, watch a Horror movie, have breakfast (vegetarian), then watch tv or browse the Internet on my Smartphone or hear and read shit, then fap to porn for Hours at a time, then going to uni and just listening to the course with no further study, get home, more TV or fapping to porn. The Problem with not watching porn is Aggression. The Problem with watching porn is Depression. The Problem with not fapping is horniness. The Problem with fapping is serious headache… What should one do? At least now I find my productivity factors: Most important is: Quigong in the morning at 7:00 on my own makes a productive day for me. Then Comes the vegan Nutrition. Then Comes reading, cooking, writing as better Hobbies than watching movies or tv series - and theatre being the better Option than the TV set or smart phone… All Comes down to whether I practice Quigong in the morning by myself or not. Fapping or not fapping, that is here the Question, but ultimately it's less important than Quigong, if it has an Impact at all. Quigong, being vegan and having great Hobbies that fufill one and make me happy is my key to productivity, and I found that out by withstanding fapping for a certain period of time. And I didn't practice Quigong this morning unfortunately, but try to do my best being a lil bit productive. Do you all think my plan is Right? Any suggestions how to make it better? Yesterday I had Trouble at work, too many ridiculously crazy students at the art Gallery, I called security so they are sent away - afterwards I thought by myself: It would have been better to tell them to spread throughout the house, so not everyone is crowded in one room. It made me sad. Like the Woman who doesn't love me, that I can't let go of. My senseless Anger, my headache, my Evil words I throwed at People who I love. Why do I do the Things that I don't want to do?