I was productive (mainly because I visited a friend and because I had to.) It seems from a cognitive standpoint, fapping and Relaxation are alright. But fapping to porn distracts the mind because the hightened alertness and lust combined with visual Stimulation and fapping might overload our System (that is my Theory) and it distracts the mind too... Nevertheless, I fapped with no porn, and now, 10 Hours later, I basically feel like shit. I emptied my hanging lower parts and am relieved, but an indevinable Feeling of guilt (from where it Comes I do not know) and I am not really happy - the smile went away from my face!... a real Partner is necessary to feel the love, bodily warmth of another and joy of life again so I hope to find a Girl one day… Maybe it's also the Hormones and I am a post-sex-depressed-almost-crying-type of post-coital weeping phenomenon… A Drama queen on the Internet when not Hearing an answer from a blonde, a fapper in a secret chamber, a cryer when the act of sex is finished… but that is just true for fapping I think… I haven't felt this sadness when being… however. never mind.