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Hi Rman

Correct! It must be expunged from your life. And that's a good thing. Life is so much better without it.

Everett

 

Great job Rman. Now you are seeing this for what it really is, a dopamine addiction, so all those lame excuses that seemed so sensible before fall apart. Anything that gives you a dopamine hit is porn. The only exception is with your wife. There, the dopamine and endorphins do what they were intended to do.....bond you to her. The same way climaxing in front a computer screen bonded you to a flat screen, sex with your wife will strengthen that bond with her...and her alone.

You have found the piece of the puzzle you were missing. Now use it. Dopamine is your enemy...porn, in any form, is the weapons it uses. Keep going. You are in a good path. Keep going!

Everett

 

Great progress!! Your brain is beginning to dry out from its dopamine bath. Keep going. Get ready for some complaints from the primitive brain that is starting to see you really mean it now. Be prepared. They are signs of great progress. Keep going!

Everett

 

Excellent!! Keep going. Stay cautious. Keep going

Everett

 

Rman,

This is bullshit! You need to get your shit together!! Now! This is absolute bullshit! You are better than this!!!

I wrote this to another guy here. He is resetting all the time. Maybe you need to read this and decide where your stand. Man up!!

Hi Willy,

So you failed! You "reset". So what are you looking for? Pity? It certainly is pitiful! You can't go a few days without looking at porn and pulling your pud! Yes that's pitiful . It should disgust you that you are so out of control of your life.

Are you looking for forgiveness? How silly. You have wronged no one here. You may have waisted some of my time, but it's my choice to write here, not yours. You will get no forgiveness from me, I have not been wronged, so there is nothing to forgive. You have wronged yourself, your family, your friends. Instead of living with them in the real world, you hid behind a closed door, looked at pixels on a screen, lived in a fantasy and stroked your dick to orgasm as if it was some kind of real sex. You cheated them out of your most precious commodity , your time. Ask them for forgiveness.

You want compassion? Are you in need of mercy and compassion? Are you in a situation where you cannot help yourself and need compassion? That would be the ultimate curse. Should we all just accept that you are beyond controlling yourself and just accept that you will spend the rest of your life out of control , dick in hand, never to have a real relationship? Never to know the freedom that self discipline brings. It's just too hard for you and we should let you wallow in your addiction ? No, you won't get that from me. I got past this and you can too. You simply choose not to. It's a choice.

Perhaps you want company. That you can find here. Misery loves company. More precisely, misery loves miserable company. That you can find here. There are so many here that reset over and over and over again. Swearing each time in their posts that next time will be different. Swearing to the reader, but never to themselves. They fail, over and over again. To some this place has become a big piece of their social life. Login here, write about your struggle, interact with other addict, fail, reset, start again. It never ends. I see people write here who have been here for years!, yes years! And show a counter set in hours. This is simply their online confessional to make them feel better about their miserable lives. Is that you?

You are currently so out of control, no one, no one can help you....except you! You must muster some self control and get some abstinence under your belt ( no pun intended). You must take the first step. You must struggle to the shallow end to have any hope of success. You must do this....or not!

I have learned to dicipline my disappointments. It really doesn't matter to me. Some will, some won't .

The bible tells a story of the early disciples . Jesus told them to go from town to town and teach. If they came to a town that would listen, stay and teach. But if they came to those who would not, to leave and wipe the dust from their shoes. And move onto the next town.

It's like here, there are many here who will listen, who will muster what it takes, who really want the freedom. Too many who will to waste too much time with those who won't . Which group are you?

It's your life. I am happy to help, if you will help yourself. If not, (shrug) it's your life, it's your choice. You got yourself here, probably by accident, but here your are. Deal with it!! Take charge of your life!!!!

Everett

 

Hi Rman,

Welcome back. I was a little worried. glad to see you are still strong. 15 days is a good start. Your head should beginning clearing. You may want to consider something......

If you "peek" again, don't reset. I think some people do more damage to their progress by resetting over small infractions. I'm not saying excuse yourself or just PMO like the old days and pretend it never happened. I'm saying look at the big picture. What will help you more? A reset and a fall back to day 1? That can be both discouraging and enticing. Enticing because now if you really splurge you haven't really lost much in the way of abstainance. Think about it.

Keep going! You must heal yourself here. And then get the hell out of here and get on with your real life.

I know you can do this. You know you can do this. It will get easier.

Everett

 

Hey Pals, I m new to this forum and would like to be a part of this brotherhood. I am starting with a 10 day no PMO from now. Small steps at first and then will increase the limits. In fact, i haven't watched P in the last 24 hrs and feel like i am starting on the right note.
My 10 day PMO rules -
1)No P
2)No M
3)No O
4)No viewing images online and offline
5)No Ogling
6)No reading erotic stuff

Let's see how it goes. Will keep posting everyday.

Thanks

 

Hi Mariachi,

Good goals! You may want to start your own journal here is you haven't already.

Let me know how it goes. Perhaps I can help....as long as your willing to help yourself

Everett