I’m in recovery from alcoholism with multiple years sobriety. I’ve experienced change in my life, and am grateful I’m not where I was years ago. However I’ve always felt chronic P and M have affected my life just as much but in a more subtle way. I have this big secret I hide from everyone, a nagging shame and self doubt hanging over my head. Over the last couple years I have experienced more and more episodes of PIED. Additionally, when I am with my girlfriend I have to think of porn to stay aroused. Things need to change; I feel less and less able to connect. I have tried to quit so many times, the longest being 1 month.