Day 1

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Giggity45, Oct 12, 2017.

  1. Giggity45

    Giggity45 Fapstronaut

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    I got a month in(last month) and it felt amazing, this stuff works. That said something triggered me and I have been on a twenty day binge ever since. This is my journey. I wish to post things daily...to post my struggles, joy, etc.

    I will say that this is way harder than alcohol or cocaine. Here we go!

    Current mood: meh. Its now 155am I am wide awake, I realize that this shit is serious. The truth is I need as much help as I can get. I want this! I need this!
     
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  2. Ready to be healthy

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    Hey there!

    I hope you are doing ok, and that your first few days back into PMO are not to difficult! We are hear for you! I can sympathise with you in regards to having a long streak of PMO- seeing good results and then still relapsing- it's difficult and I feel for you!

    Just try and avoid triggering behaviours- internet browsing at 2am can be quite dangerous, get some early nights if you can.
     
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  3. Giggity45

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    DAY 2

    Depressed as shit, didn't get much sleep. I feel terrrrrrrible. Is there hope? Maybe I should try a 12 step program. Then again maybe my struggle will mean something some day.

    Again this shit is harder to quit than cocaine, and alcohol.
     
  4. I can understand you, i barely managed 1 week before relapsing. You managing 1 month is a great improvement if you ask me. Keep up the good work and you'll make it.
     
  5. P4P

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    A month free from PMO was great whilst it lasted. You must have gone through ups and downs on route to achieving that. My experience has proven that a relapse after a lengthy streak ends in chaotic binging. Trying to then build another streak becomes very difficult, this addiction is the most hardest chains to unleash from, the hold it has on us is ridiculous. I totally understand your point, having said that building from the bottom up is still possible. The first week seems the most challenging to me
     
  6. Giggity45

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    annnnnnnd I just relapsed! I can admit this. Will keep fighting the good fight hahah man this is hard as hell...but you know what isn't? Muh dick! haha you gotta laugh sometimes
     

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