Day 1

Hi fellas

I'm 23 years old, and today decided to do something with my porn and mastrubation addiction and found out about nofap.
i dont have any romantic or sexual experience, and never really brought myself to chat up with girls. i tend to get frightened by this and saying to myself that i don't know how to deal with those situations, even though i did date with one girl a couple of years ago and fell in love with some girls and even understood that i was clearly either loved by a few of them.
usually it's hard to me to get to sleep without mastrubating first, and in many cases i alsso get errection while waking up and also starting to mastrubate. generally speaking, i mastrubate once a day, but sometimes i do less or more than that. i'm ashamed my bedsheets are dirty of those mastrubations, and wish to see myself as more controllable of my urges and not to see myself as someone who hides a frightening secret.
i tend to be shamed about it and doesn't talk about it to anyone. i hate the way porn affects me (and affects our society in general), and though i do have periods of time in which i quit porn, i tend to come back to it after a while.
a few weeks ago i've decided to move to a new single-room apartment by myself for one year, and i clearly see how in this situation i may have both the potential to be in greater creative activity with more private time and private space, but of course there's also the risk to strengthen my addiction with less shame and more possible loneliness.
i haven't decided yet how much time i want to challenge myself at first time. i'm thinking of quitting porn for a few months (or for good), and to decrease my mastrubation, maybe to once a week or once for two weeks in the beginning.

i'd be glad to hear from you, to get familiar with your situations as well, to get advices from you or to get questions about any subject.
nice to meet this wonderful community