Day 10 - Improvements

10 days have passed with absolutely no PMO. Had some sexual dreams, but steered away very nicely by turning them lucid (to some degree), even though I have nothing against these kind of dreams.

My improvements are mainly about social interaction. You got pals, friends and people you hang out with and sometimes it's like, I can't do this or that without you, you know, I'm scared by myself or I'll look like a weirdo alone in some situation etc. = I don't have the balls. That's the truth. A BIG thing I feel now is, I really don't need anyone at all, to do what I want. Wanna talk to someone special, go somewhere nice or do something. Do it!
It feels risky yes, but my standards have risen by 300%. The best or nothing at all.

+ Calmer and more observing
+ Takes bigger risks = (Gets bigger rewards) <-- that's how it goes
+ Passion is slowly coming back again
+ Ability to concentrate and focus has definitely improved
+ Memories and feelings returning, peeling one layer of bullshit at a time

? EXXXTREMELY horny

- My ego really wants to go back to PMO
- Mind sometimes still hovers to the extreme kinds of taste, which I have to shake my head to escape from

My signature says 9, but that's incorrect.

That's a little update for now.
Stay safe and never give up on your dreams. Ever.