Feeling much better and sometimes feels I have left the addiction behind but I like the idea of "once an addict, always an addict" attitude at life now. I saw many guys here who fall right after they reached their 90 days goals and I had a couple of days when I almost fell but somehow survived. It's very important to stay vigilant no matter what you are on and never get carried away by the number of days you have gone without pmo. The gun is always pointed at us and it only takes a bad day to pull the trigger. I can't mention all the benefits I got as they are too many to count but all I can say is that all the pain is worth, no matter how tough it seems or the mind make it seems, you will only realize that in the end. Keep Fighting and good luck!
Awesome man! I'm not really the biggest fan of counting days. In my humble opinion I think it's great in the begining to keep track and use it as a positive reinforcement but once you get past day 30 the mentality should change. Meaning, the intention should be based on a life style change not just for seeing how many days one can survive.
CONGRATS ON 120 I like to see addiction and recovery in terms of neuro-pathways. One pathway led to the addiction. Recovery involves making new paths that the brain learns to love more than the old path. By way of analogy, imagine a trail in the woods that was used for years that went off a cliff onto the rocks. The trail has deep ruts in the ground. Now imagime that you make a new trail towards a clear summit with a view. You make another trail towards a lake. Another towards an an orchard. You had to find the new destinations and sweat out blazing the trails. In all that time, the old trail grows over. You start to think about it less because you spend more time with the new destinations. The ruts of the old trail are there, and the path could be cleared again, but the old trail loses its power because you are not seeing it as the only option. This is why recovery must involve new living. New trails constantly blazed. GOD'S PEACE[[/QUOTE]
I agree with you; we don't want to obsess but we've got to stay vigilant at the same time. PMO as a pathway can be left to decay over time and the weeds will grow over it. We might not even notice it most days anymore. But although that path can fade into the back of our minds, it will never truly be gone. If you make enough bad choices you can pull it right back out of obscurity and after a surprisingly short time it will be just as compelling as it ever was. Happened to me more than once sadly. Got to find a good balance between being wary but also moving on to the other good things in life and laying PMO to rest as best as we can after we break our habits of it.
Congrats awakening! Yes I think this will be a battle for all life but we have to be smart about it and change the mindset... It´s not that we are not going to like porn anymore.. It´s the level of conciousness that tells you don´t do it any more because all damaged this have caused you. YogiF
The more I spend actively making great brain trails...prayer, serving others, exploring new hobbies... the greater life becomes. PMO gets put in perspective. PMO is ultimately a vacuum in a closet. A hamster wheel that goes nowhere. Quicksand in a basement. Wasted time.
First of, congrats on your extended streak! Have you ever thought of forgetting the number on days you are 'on', and instead focusing on the change within yourself? I mean, wouldn't it be great to one day wake up and no longer feel as if gun were pointed at you!
If it can be thought, it is possible. If I can envisage having no desire for P, then I can work my way towards it. How ? By developing new desires and tastes.
Yes! What's the point of an extended counter without a qualitative change within yourself? A relapse at that point would only be demoralizing.
The number of days will always stay with me and I will keep them with as a reminder of the progress I have made and that will motivate me further and not give in ever again. The streak will also serve as a reminder about the tough recovery I have had. Change comes everyday and gradually. Changing alone doesn't guarantee life long recovery. There are always going to be moments in life when you will feel down and this is when the addiction may light up and it's very easy to fall right back into the cycle. I like to thing the gun is pointed at me even if it is not because that will keep me on my toes all the time and stay vigilant towards any sneaking urge or trigger that can go bad. This is the advice I got from many drug users here and on r/nofap and I still feel I am an addict.
Agree with you bro. I think you got the point! The old life style cultivated habits like PMO or unlimited game playing.
