I never thought that I would be back to day 2 however it has happened. After talking to my SO today I’ve realised that it wasn’t exactly what I was doing (even though it did hurt badly) but it was the lies. And to be fair I’m such a hypocrite when it comes to lying, I hate it when done to myself yet I have done it time and time again to the one I love. Now for the time being, I’m trying to absorb all the information I can get, help, tips, tricks, what others do, what helps them, can it help me and so on. Now some of the posts I have read have been great, they open my eyes to a different angle and they seem to have a lot more experience, so I’m taking notes on what they’re doing. Trying to get the best information from everyone. I know it’s all down to attitude, giving someone the tools doesn’t mean anything, it’s attitude that the results. I think what helps me best is a routine, when I’m not doing something, that’s when any urges start. However if I have a to-do list for that day, that’s what helps a whole lot for me. I know that’s avoiding and not facing but I’m dealing with that as well. The SA meetings are on a night when I am not working so I’m getting out of my comfort zone and battling this head on. I have every intention on going and hopefully it helps. My 30 day challenge has now 29 days left, go me!