Day 22 - Gas Station Staring

The price on gas are at their lowest at the moment, so I took off to fill up. Now even though it is 12am, there's more than 4 cars in this DIY gas station.

So this blond woman, musta been 27 to 30 years old, extremely attractive and very beautiful, she starts to look at me from inside her car, while I'm fillin' up. She parks at the pump and get out. She then starts staring at me for more than 5 seconds and we both had eye contact. Then she smiles a little bit and, you know, insert her credit card etc.. she came in a styled 407 with spoiler and rims. I'm sure it was her boyfriends. Who the hell puts a spoiler on a 407?

First off I thought that she was someone I knew but couldn't recognize. She was a complete stranger but I kept on looking cus she was pretty. Of course I acted a little bit cool by staring back without losing contact and that helped, but that 'cool' bit wouldn't even be an option if I was still in my usual PMO habit..

This is what gives me the 5% extra confidence, cause women DO take notice on the way you behave. The life you want seems to be just in front of you and challenges start to become possibilities.


Just needed to share this..

 

Thanks and yeah for the first time I must admit, EDGING should be totally eliminated. I've done a lot of edging in the past, thinking it was okay as long as I didn't relapse. Totally wrong. Eliminate it completely, no stimulation whatsoever and serious change start to happen!

 

That's the thing. I'm keeping 99.9 sexual fantasies out of my head as much as possible.
You do see girls on the streets and 7-Eleven and stuff, you know, I think it's alright it you have some specific girl, that you care about or find very beautiful in your mind. How it would be to be in her company etc.

The problem usually is when the fantasy goes on in some very sick direction and starts stalling your process indirectly.
That's where I immediately shake that thought off my head (physically). Stupid as hell, but it works.