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Day 228, struggling to keep going...

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Squeaky Soul, Dec 26, 2015.

  1. Squeaky Soul

    Squeaky Soul Fapstronaut

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    I'm copying and pasting this from my journal:

    I'm really struggling with my Catholic faith, my parents have a rocky relationship, blah blah blah...

    All of this combined weighs down on me, and makes me really want to relapse. Last night I was watching the movie, Take Me Home Tonight, and as you know might know, it has a sex scene. It was really arousing... Normally, I would avert my so I would not be tempted, but this time i just sat and focused more attention to it.

    I reset my "ogled" counter as a result, because I violated the rule. It's getting harder and harder to do this. My religion told me to never watch porn or masturbate becuase it was a grave sin... well, now that Christianity isn't that big of a deal to me, I really struggle to not PMO... the idea of PMO sounds better the longer I stay distant from Christianity.

    Well, Christianity isn't the only reason stopping me from PMO. I hate the emptymess PMO leaves me with. The feeling of failure, and guilt. Another thing I notice, I used to have bad body odor, and used to sweat way more when I used to PMO on a regular basis.

    My question: What do I do?

    Sorry if I'm hard to follow. I've been having a hard time articulate my thoughts clearly here on the forum...
     
  2. Don't worry mate.You go for porn because it gives you happiness.What if the same happiness would be given to you in a more profitable way? Would you stop watching porn?
    -Get down to nice and comfortable place and Meditate for 5-10 minutes.Let the thoughts come,because it is their very basic nature to come and go.You just focus on meditating.Before meditating,try some breathing exercises,believe me,they will give the same HIGH as porn in a more profitable way.
     
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  3. Darkstar 22.84

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    Seek out womanly companionship.
    I always get flak from Christians around these parts, but that's my best answer.
    If you are gay, then talk to gay people.
    You are not alone in this struggle. Go out and socialize.
     
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  4. Squeaky Soul

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    Alright, I'm done tempting myself...

    time to get back on the saddle.

    It's been really hard recently. Recently, I can't stop staring at girls... it's annoying, I don't want to be like this.
     
  5. Darkstar 22.84

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    Staring at girls is perfectly natural. It is in your nature to want a woman.
    If you're Christian, think about it this way: this is the way God, in his infinite wisdom, made us.
    The Adamic Couple was Adam & Eve, not just Adam abstaining from looking at Eve.
    So, once more, I suggest you get out of your shell, Squeaky and live.
    There's a Christian girl out there for you. You just have to find her.
     
  6. Squeaky Soul

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    I know, I'll keep looking :(
     
  7. Darkstar 22.84

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    Don't lose hope. The worst thing that you can do is to lose trust in yourself.
    Remember, God in his infinite wisdom loves you and wants you be happy. So don't stray from the light.
    I believe you will make it. Because judging by your counter, you've shown strenght and endurance.
    Few of us make it as far as you did.
    Know this and be valiant in your quest.
    You have my respect.
     
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  8. Squeaky Soul

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    Thank you!

    No matter, I need to remember God's love.
     
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  9. NoBrainer

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    As an atheist, I find it useful and would therefore recommend focusing on these more external, non-religious motivations to stay clean from PMO. Your faith is likely to dwindle in some stages of your life. It can be be a good motivator to quit, but in my opinion not the only motivator. Try turning the question on it's head- Why would you want to go back to PMO?
     
  10. NoBrainer

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    There isn't anything inherently wrong with looking at girls. It's your motivations towards looking at them in the first place that is more important. This challenge shouldn't be about repressing your sexuality. We all need to find a healthy balance.
     
  11. Squeaky Soul

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    Thank you no brainer!
     
  12. interesting I have been three ears free from very heavy p use..some times my langwedge is blury..i can be hard to follow, scatter brained if ese are for the same thing you are hard to follow, just a observation.
     

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