I'm on day 25 of quitting all dopamine releasing activities, I seem to be in a withdrawal phase still but there's some clear signs of healing happening. One really obvious one is I'm feeling this really strong attraction to females as I'm talking to them. I thought it was completely emotional but I been struggling to not get an erection so it definitely must be sexual too. This is the first time in my life I've ever been able to feel this. I have this huge level of confidence as I'm feeling this which is interesting cuz I usually wouldn't be confident like that. I say 25 days but this is 25 days after a minor relapse after about 3 months of abstinence and I was starting to feel this before the relapse. Its really nice to be able to feel this attraction thing, but I'm struggling a bit with erections, I feel like running and hiding when it happens. I never in my whole life was ever able to feel this level of attraction cuz I started taking drugs at 15 and was in that cycle for all my teenage and adult years, I couldn't really feel ordinary connection.
