Day 272 Relapse?, or how I may have thrown away over 2/3 of a year in under 60 seconds

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Wolf 77, Apr 26, 2019.

Did I relapse?

  1. Yes

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  2. No

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  1. Wolf 77

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    I haven't masturbate or even edged in 272 days, until today. In fact I watched virtually zero other than porn that accidentally stumbled upon while browsing sites like 4chan.

    Just over half an hour ago I was extremely horny, and I still don't know how but somehow I justified edging to myself, or rather I wasn't thinking about it, and "didn't care."

    I hadn't came in over two, maybe even three months, so I was extremely sensitive and it didn't take me much to finish. After just a few short seconds of rubbing I was covered in a whole sea of months old cum.

    The only problem is that I didn't touch, or even go within 4 inches of my penis, nor was I watching porn, just lying in bed, EXTREMELY horny. All I did was rub the area 4 directly above my penis for a few seconds, and before I knew it I could feel massive build up, that I couldn't keep for exploding.

    Does this count as a relapse? Did I really just lose 272 days in under a minute? Either way this should be a stark warning to everyone, including those who think they're "made it." A few seconds is all it takes to potentially set you back to day one, no matter how far in you are.
     
  2. Reborn_

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    No. You definitely did not relapse.
    Don't be discouraged and make sure not to binge relapse.
     
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  3. Wolf 77

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    Thank you!

    I was just a bit confused considering that I came, without touching my dick. If I was under 90 days in I would have just automatically considered this a relapse and moved on, but given how far I've came it seems unfair to let something like this reset all my progress.

    I'm going to wait 48 hours and I'll reset my counter depending on wither or not I get more yes's or no's in my poll. But regardless of what I get this still at the very least feels like a major set back, relapse or not.
     
  4. No man. Didn't even touch your dick or watch porn. Your fine man. Also great job on 272 days!
     
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  5. Wolf 77

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    Thank you! I really appreciate the outburst of support.

    I'm just glad that I didn't binge relapse, like I used to do whenever I relapsed or came close to it. Looks like a really am going to make it through a full year, but I think this had taught me that you're never fully free from urges, even on day 272, or year one, you can't let yourself grow weak.
     
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  6. Same here. Isn't this why you are rebooting in the first place? To get more sensitive, get erections and being able to orgasm without watching porn? Surely not the top expert here but what you experienced for sure seems like the opposite of a porn-addicted brain. And 272 days is phenomenal! I am just wondering, what's your goal by the way? When will you know for yourself that you have rebooted? Maybe don't get too hung up on days and rather use that experience as a clear sign that your brain has changed.
     
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  7. Elzapadelagente

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    Felicitaciones por los 272 días. Sugerencia, ten en cuenta de que el foco de atención tiene que estar en dejar la adiccion hoy! Para siempre y no en el contador. El contador es una herramienta de control nada más. Puedes recaer o no, poner el contador en cero o no, haz lo que quieras pero el foco de atención es dejar esta adicción todo el tiempo, se trata de ser más fuerte que ayer. Suerte compañero.
     
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  8. adamdamn

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    Big congrats on the 272 days man! Focus on the mindset rather than the days, and your reaction shows you're on the right track!
     
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  9. ssj4goku1992

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    No, you didn t relapse
     
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  10. Wolf 77

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    I'd say that my goal is to try and rid myself of any unnecessary urges, wither they be sexual or not. I'm trying to abstain form anything that comprise my judgment or in any other way impair my ability to exercise self control. I wish to rid myself of all degenerate or hedonistic urges, as much is possible and reasonable.

    I abstain from porn, masturbation, drugs, alcohol, and follow a vegan diet to the best of my ability to maintain and improve upon my aforementioned goals. Recently I've been trying to consume less caffeine, and so far I think I've done a pretty good job, but I won't be fully satisfied until I consume none. I'm looking into decaffeinated tea at the moment.

    Also to answer your other question, I think I rebooted sometime around day 90, but that doesn't mean that on rare occasions I don't get powerful urges, unfortunate.
     
  11. Wolf 77

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    ¡Gracias!

    Para ser honesto, el contador es solo un poco de impulso del ego, pero sigo entendiendo la importancia de no preocuparme demasiado por eso. Incluso si, por alguna razón, tengo que volver a poner el contador en el primer día, todavía he hecho programas monumentales.

    El mostrador es solo el chery en el pastel, una forma de darte una palmadita en la espalda, pero no es el pastel en sí, no es la razón por la que nos abstenemos de la pornografía y la masturbación, y no nos debe afectar. Como dije, es solo un pequeño impulso de ego, nada más.
     
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  12. Wolf 77

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    Thank you!

    I haven't really used this site too much in the past because I've never thought that I need it, (and I still don't) but I think I'll stick around more often, given some of the really positive feedback I've received.
     
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  13. I wonder are you doing no PM or no PMO
     
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  14. Wolf 77

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    I'm doing no PMO, or at might as well be considering the fact that I don't have any sex.
     
  15. Then you didn't relapse, also don't dwell on the days, because a person so determined and dedicated on day 1 is still better than a person still forcing himself and trying hard to avoid urges on day 999
     
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  16. Wolf 77

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    To be honest I've gotten to the point where I generally don't think about nofap, at all. Not watching porn or masturbating has become the new normal for me, so I don't usually have to worry about it. However that's why I got so upset about this. It seemed to just come out of nowhere and I convinced myself that since I was only rubbing my groin I'd be fine, but then I came.
     
  17. bluered

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    are u suffering from PE such that u ejaculated in 60secs or its just that u we're extremely horny ur body needed to release after a long tym??
     
  18. joarev85

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    «Hand claps»
     
  19. joarev85

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    You didn’t relapse. Continue your streak. Dont dwell. Rebooting is a lifetime process which may include incidences like that.
     
  20. Wolf 77

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    I don't suffer from ED, but I hadn't ejaculated in about two months, (wet dream) so I'm guessing that there was just too much build up.
     

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