day 3. mind is playing tricks on me.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by waldek420, Apr 9, 2019.

  1. waldek420

    waldek420 Fapstronaut

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    day 3. quite possibly the longest i've gone without PMO in several years. hell, even when i was be very sick, i would still PMO. Girls in leggings, especially those with big butts are beginning to trigger me. I have to be careful to not look like a creep around girls. I tend to have several meetings a day with strangers in somewhat professional environments. the amount of beautiful women in chicago is absolutely staggering. i haven't deleted any of my porn. i've been checking out my girlfriend when she is dressing/undressing. she has the body of the girl of my dreams. large firm breasts, and a round and somewhat big butt for a girl whos only 5'3". i haven't told her about NOFAP, i also never told her i have a porn addiction. she is under the impression that i PMO once or twice a week just for stress relief or help with sleep. the fact of the matter is i have been PMOing 2 to 3 times a day for several years. it's not her fault, I was like this when we met 4 years ago. I've been like this for over 20 years. I am doing nofap because i want to improve OUR sex life. I tend to lose my erection with her. and she gets very self conscious about it, thinking it's her fault, when it's really not! her body excites me beyond explanation, but because of my porn addiction my penis doesn't stay hard during sex. when she gives me oral i never reach orgasm. I have never orgasmed from oral sex. it's depressing. I'm hoping NOFAP changes all this for me. in life the right decisions are usually the most difficult ones.
     
  2. Lastgreenseer

    Lastgreenseer Fapstronaut

    I’m glad you’re making the change for your girlfriend. From what I read it is reversible, the negative problems of PMO

    How is your mind tricking you though?
     
  3. waldek420

    waldek420 Fapstronaut

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    well, you know. i'm noticing other women more frequently. just thinking about PMO frequently throughout the day. i'm checking out women i don't even find attractive. i started watching some of my porn but shut it off before i got too aroused. my brain is wired for PMO and it is craving porn. I need to rewire it.
     
  4. Lastgreenseer

    Lastgreenseer Fapstronaut

    We all need our brain rewired from porn which is why we’re here. The first thing to do is delete all the porn you have access to. I deleted a whole Dropbox folder of porn created just for me from my sub. I’ve done this in the past too and I was a hoarder of porn. Deleting the porn and the apps being used a is a good first step. If it’s no longer available you’ll be less likely to stumble.

    Stay strong
     
  5. Roro 9090

    Roro 9090 New Fapstronaut

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    Hi guys am 28 years not married
    After 60 days of nofap i got extremely aroused even when watching youtube video about hot girls
    And suddenly with no touch or intention i found my self getting wet ( ejaculation without touch made me depressed and the next day iam back on porn and masterbation again with highly PE
    Help me plz
     
  6. Lastgreenseer

    Lastgreenseer Fapstronaut

    Congratulations on reaching 60 days. You’ve stumbled and watching hot girls on YouTube is a Porn substitute as you know. As far as getting wet, are you sure you orgasmed and ejaculated and not just was extremely drippy? I produce tons of pre-cum when aroused, so much so it’s visible through my pants. It’s best to stay away from those things that can trigger us.

    Stay strong and don’t beat yourself up. Just start again. It’s a process and reaching 60 days is great.
     
  7. Roro 9090

    Roro 9090 New Fapstronaut

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    Yes am sure i ejaculated that thing has somehow disappointed me cause its unusual for me just to cum after visual arousal maybe because it was a long time
     

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