day 3. quite possibly the longest i've gone without PMO in several years. hell, even when i was be very sick, i would still PMO. Girls in leggings, especially those with big butts are beginning to trigger me. I have to be careful to not look like a creep around girls. I tend to have several meetings a day with strangers in somewhat professional environments. the amount of beautiful women in chicago is absolutely staggering. i haven't deleted any of my porn. i've been checking out my girlfriend when she is dressing/undressing. she has the body of the girl of my dreams. large firm breasts, and a round and somewhat big butt for a girl whos only 5'3". i haven't told her about NOFAP, i also never told her i have a porn addiction. she is under the impression that i PMO once or twice a week just for stress relief or help with sleep. the fact of the matter is i have been PMOing 2 to 3 times a day for several years. it's not her fault, I was like this when we met 4 years ago. I've been like this for over 20 years. I am doing nofap because i want to improve OUR sex life. I tend to lose my erection with her. and she gets very self conscious about it, thinking it's her fault, when it's really not! her body excites me beyond explanation, but because of my porn addiction my penis doesn't stay hard during sex. when she gives me oral i never reach orgasm. I have never orgasmed from oral sex. it's depressing. I'm hoping NOFAP changes all this for me. in life the right decisions are usually the most difficult ones.