Hey community, finding my way through this rough time on day 3. My dilemma is that when I usually had free time I would usually spend it cruising Grindr looking for other men to hook up with. It all started years ago crossdressinf, panties, wigs, clothes, heels, whole nine yards, drinking excessively and posting myself on Craigslist and Grindr for other men after watching sissy hypno videos, TS stuff, of course which had escalated from regular straight hetero porn. It increasingly got worse and worse until I just wanted to meet other men in bathrooms and just have them use me. And of course after feel complete disgust in myself, alone, depressed, filthy, and broken. I’m battling each day by day, and instead of searching for an outlet, I come here to this community. Does anyone share this same fetish, how have they overcome it. I still find myself wanting to get back online, dress up again and be used in a submissive sissy form, how do I get past this....
Hi Aibwen, you need to cool down your system, get off the hook, starve out the urge by going THROUGH the pain, feels unbearable at times. It‘ll pass, get weaker if you don‘t feed the fetish with imagining, thinking about, fantasizing, daydreaming about. Focus on what you want, not what you are trying to avoid but instead focus on where you wanna go. Do sth, go jogging, move, do some sport, yoga, take a Mindfulness course, master your mind. I was into submission, sissistuff, findom, humiliation, forced intox and all the rest of it. Glad it‘s over.
You are not your thoughts. Risky sexual behavior is something that might be easier to understand through therapy or counseling.
