Day 30. Girls are starting to look interesting.

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  1. pcmaster

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    So 90 days ! 90 mada fcking girls ! Ops I mean days. Jeez thinking about girls again, I should think about Jesus.

    All credits for my success goes to God. He made it easy for me by making first months of summer cold and rainy so less raging hormones in cold weather and less eye candy - less girls with exposed booty.
    Currently sitting on a flat line and thing it will stay that way cause body is asleep - got used to not using sexual energy so maybe thats why sexual energy is not produced anymore. Whats really cool about these 90 days that I did it without wet dreams. But it seems like theres more sexual dreams lately. One dream even felt so good that I was surprised it wasnt wet dream cause felt really good.

    Also I seen a dream last night that I relapsed and was thinking - "damn it wasnt worth it, I lost my streak at 89 days."
    LOL good to be clean after all. Anyway I feel like I need to take extra care of my heart because not having sex too and sex is twice a week is more healthy to heart than once a month. Besides sleeping much less too because having more energy so thats not good for heart too. What really helps heart is fatty fish like salmon(because of omega 3 fat acids and other stuff) I ordered Cod liver oil capsules from bulkpowders,com because using them daily in the moornings makes diference - helps feel better since theres a lot of healthy stuff for heart in it just like in fish and fish oil.

    Superpowers? I look super cool and sexy now. Looking younger too. So yeah great looks is my reward. And my voice sounds deeper and cooler now. Feel more in control of my life now. Making friends seems easier and girls been looking at me more. I dont feel invisible to girls anymore. My walk is cooler too, the way I walk is more composed and masculine or at least I feel like it.
     
  2. joarev85

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    Great to hear pcmaster! Keep the good stuff going.
     
  3. Alcyone

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    Real girls are starting to look interesting? And then why a lot of people masturbate even if they have a solid relationship with a woman? I think "real" women never stop being interesting even for the most stubborn of fappers! But with a woman you can not make love whenever you want, while you can switch on the PC as often as you like...Unfortunately, the easiest way to obtain something is often the most attractive :emoji_disappointed:
     
  4. pcmaster

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    Its easy not to masturbate first 2-3 years in relationship but afterwards I think that relationship is not new enough to motivate stay clean and then real you comes out. You are not actually won addiction if you stop masturbate when you enter new relationship or meet new girl, you are just pushed that addiction further inside while being stimulated in other ways.
    What I have learned now is not to fap while being alone without any girls in my life. I mean its easy not to fap while relationship or attraction with a girl motivates you, but finding motivation to do it foryourself while being alone is more effective and right.
    You are right its easy to watch P but its damaging and stimulates you even if you dont want to naturally M.
    I felt best while masturbating while being outside under the stars. My best M experiences was without P.
    So that gives something to think about.
     
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  5. pcmaster

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    So 100 days already. Wish I could write an inspiring story. But in reality Its autumn and change of season came with depression and health problems. Even been to hospital because my heart hurt but they been thinking that its because of nerves. Now not working cause had pain in heart while working so have to slow down on such activities. Going to doctors, using new meds, but yeah its pretty tuff. Feel like have to overcome this wall. 2,5 years ago had a similar problem when after stopping fap for 3 months during winter and early spring fell in depression and wasnt working, just sitting at home at PC and going to gym. But then I overcame it by starting new job and manual labor really was a relief from depression. But still felt pretty unhappy and insecure, especially in the moornings when coming to work and saying hi to colleagues. Few months after starting to work I started to feel good about myself and in the moornings was smiling for no reason while greeting colleagues and shaking hands with them. Then slipped back to fapping.

    Just came back from work interview in best factory in my city. Interview went good and they offered me difficult job(minimun time to learn it is 1-2 years. No one did it faster than 1 year yet.) with much more thinking and higher pay than my current job. Seems like a lot of stress at the beginning but might be worth it since its start of something new and possibly better. Tomorrow they will call me and I have to decide till then, cause there will be 5 days trial to see if its what I need and if Im what they need.

    What about girls? Yesterday one girl called me on the phone and we talked for almost an hour. We been chatting for few weeks and this was first real conversation. Got impression that her life is not easy and shes jealous at my current job because of how little hours I work and how much getting paid. Still I try not to think about girls since have more serious problems now. Turning to girls now would be just too much new things at the time and everyone says you have to be happy first on your own because being happy with someone else or trying to make someone happy.

    Otherwise my sex life is great. Having sex almost everyday - almost monday, almost tuesday, almost wednesday and so on. Besides that I could call my sex life God. Because it dont exist. Anyway I dont need sex cause goverment fcks me everyday. And nobodys a virgin, cause life fcks everyone.
     
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  7. pcmaster

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    Wanted to start new topic but since have this will post here.

    Too much energy ! I been sleeping less and felt rested and during day just have too much energy, I pedal great distances with a bike and still feel like I did nothing. Not feeling tired after exercises with dumbells too. Anyway now I have my old meds back - the ones that used to make me feel tired, without energy and sleepy. Also they reduce sex drive a lot and when full dose is taken orgasm happens without ejaculation. Anyway starting to use old meds today and now they really will be a blessing cause I need more sleep and less energy.
    Im currently on sic and today visited work and my voice sounded loud and energetic. Its like why the heck Im not working as someone might think after seeing me.
     
  8. dopecry

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    Awesome. Great going
     
  9. Derek5150

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    good job buddy! keep up the amazing work. you deserve the best!
     
  10. Moonshine91

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    Day 30+, I tried to have sex with some hooker and relapsed browsing that web-page. I thought that I was ready to have sex. I was horny, had morning wood, was able to get hard without porn or even thoughts about sex/girls. And then I relapsed... I got so exited that was on the verge of orgasm and helped myself with hand. First sweet orgasm after 5 weeks of abstinence...
    3 days after I went to some girl, trid to have sex and it didnt work out YET ANOTHER TIME! To be honest, I expected that, but also had hope it would be better this time. No, it didn't! Btw, girl was also 3* out of five.

    Now I have to start from the beginning! This time I will be more precautious.
     
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  11. pcmaster

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    Try to have sex because of love not because you want to to get off.

    I have understood recently that I felt bad with girls when it came to sex because I was making it about orgasm. Instead I will make it about having that deep intimate connection. I will use sex to become closer.
     
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  12. O.Renato

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    I want to feel what that is like. Nice job bro.
     
  13. Keep going pcmaster! Congratulations!! Today I'm replying your topic you are at 119 day, great job!!
     
  14. pcmaster

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    Thanks guys. Its not exactly like you suddenly feel like superhuman but feels better overall in all aspects, it comes gradually, not in one day.

    Planning to go to work tommorow and tell one work buddy that Im on 120 days. He knows Im doing nofap.
     
  15. Derek5150

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    As the days grow stronger for myself, I find women to be incredibly beautiful and fascinating. I use to be one of those dweebs that assume all women were alike. After so much introspecting lately, I've come to appreciate this forum for encouraging self-discipline and being able to share how I feel about them.
     
  16. This is the good vibes, this is the goooooooood life
    Congrats
     
  17. pcmaster

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    I see you man. Used to think the same at least all girls was bitches to me - didnt wanted talk or didnt wanted anything with me or used me. I was invisible. Now when addiction is at distance, relationships and interactions with people improved too. When you start to respect yourself, others start respect you too. Actions that you do when no one sees - its the actions that makes you.
    You become as big as your dominant aspiration or as small as your controlling desire.
     
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    Thanks but not always its been so great. Around 100 days I had to stop work for few weeks cause heart hurts, been thinking about one girl everyday and guess its harder to forget her since not fapping anymore. (PMO used to be a stress relief and escape from reality, way to numb myself.) Really became more sensitive and nostalgic. So while no PMO helps its not just roses and great things. Lost few friends too because I our ways parted since they kept fapping but Im against it now and dont respect wankers. But thats normal cause as you grow you grow out of your old friends.
    I must say its not easy. Thats why its called hard mode. What motivates me is that I will be more ready for relationship when right girl comes. Since relationships are my biggest passion and PMO made me unsocial creep in past.

    The way to freedom can be more painful cause this road is less traveled but its the long and rocky road that leads to paradise.
     
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  19. I cannot begin to imagine how the heartbreak and parting with friends was, but the best thing is that you have not relapsed yet. Keep those fapper friends away unless they reform too, you are a new man now.

    As you said, as one grows older, those fake friends start dropping of your way. But in the meantime, you get stronger, better and wiser in handling relationships and life in general.

    In the process of NoFap, improving yourself and self-care, you will make yourself one hell of a catch without even noticing. And that will attract the right people and the right one.

    Again congrats on the 124 Days, man I envy that counter :)
     

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