So I started browsing this website and the subreddit since I started my latest (and hopefully final) recovery attempt. Since I have now passed the 30 day mark I thought I would write my first post about my experience so far in the hope that I can continue to help myself as well as helping other people. Background I am a 26 year old male that has been PMO’ing for roughly 12-14 years. From when I first started, my need for PMO increased to the point where some days I would PMO 5 or 6 times a day. I have never been the best around women and struggled to attract them mainly due to being shy and anxious around them. The lack of interest from women would then lead me to PMO. I have been trying to get over this addiction for about 2-3 years now. The best streak I have ever had has been 56 days. Other than that it has been streaks ranging from a couple of days to a couple of weeks. I started trying to get over my addiction during my last relationship (which was my first proper relationship) where I realised that I suffered from PIED. Looking back I feel really bad because my now ex-girlfriend would get upset because she thought the fact that I couldn’t get an erection at times was because of her like she wasn’t attractive enough. At first I thought that there was something wrong with me physically (I even went to the doctors) until one day I randomly stumbled upon something that explained the effects of P and M. I then realised that this is what was affecting me but I never plucked up the courage to tell her and tried to fight it alone. Progress so far As I have previously mentioned, I have tried getting over this addiction many times before but this time it feels different. I just feel that this could be the time when I finally beat it and get to a point where I fully reboot. I now feel better equipped than ever to fight this because every time I have relapsed I have made a change that will prevent me from relapsing again. I have identified my weak moments and taken steps to stop myself from being in those situations. I have goals such as being PMO free up and until I move out from my parents’ house and into my own house in June. I’m hoping this will then help me to not PM when I live on my own. I have been in flatline since Day 1 which for me has meant that things have been fairly easy so far as I have had no urges to PMO. I know a lot of people get scared by the flatline but I have tried to embrace it. I have had sexual thoughts come into my mind which has led to me getting an erection but they have mainly been when I have gone to bed on a night after playing sports and I have quickly got rid of the thoughts. I also haven’t noticed many of the benefits yet that people say they have noticed. Some days I am confident, other days not so much. I have had some slight interest from women which I am hoping will continue. I have had no wet dreams or morning wood yet either. I believe this is because I have been getting through the initial PMO withdrawal symptoms. I have had mood swings and some days felt lethargic with little energy. I also experienced some anxiety which has now pretty much gone. I think I have covered everything and I hope to post further progress in the future. Keep fighting, we will all succeed in the end!