Hi, I've been struggling NoFap over Gay porn, and I feel like that It won't be successful because when I see a guy, I have a weird feeling on my Penis like it let me precum or something when I see a guy's face. I had mental problems because of this. I just want to get rid of that feeling to defend against guys. This is what I always wish for. I never wanted to be gay and I want it gone soon. I thought porn harms sexuality but when I read in the forums it doesn't. I don't know whats wrong with my brain as a child. I don't know if it's a fetish feeling or sexual attraction. I can't deal with it. I want to defend against guys they have talking bullshit to me. But in the past years, i never defended against guys, I don't know why i never did it. Even if I accept that feeling, my thoughts are appearing again and I get a chaser effect, it seems like it's a trap and I relapsed multiple times. I'm wondering when does it stop so that I can live better again. I don't know what to do. I'm also trying to get rid of gay thoughts because if I don't, I will feel unconfortable when I'm outside.