Day 45

Keep going!!!! You can do it! Do not sacrifice your progress!!!

 

I failed few times before this one. Never lasted this long and i feel like i could do it for eternity.

 

You have to decide. You are not a newbie anymore, so you know that nothing is making you relapse, it only happens if you decided to do it. You know that not relapsing is what you want to do, and you know that if you do not relapse, it is probably better tomorrow. The withdrawals are not linear. They come and they go, sometimes big, sometimes small. Quitting porn has value to you, doing porn has no value, so choose value.

I'll tell you something really stupid I did about 50 days in, when I was where you are. A little mind trick, if you will, to distract myself. I would go online and find things other than porn to study or occupy my time. I found an online game (and I hate online games) called Haunted House. It's sort of a maze game, find the objects, collect the keys. I could play it for about 10 minutes, really concentrate on it, and by the time I was done the desire for porn had usually passed. Give yourself something that gets porn out of your head for about 10 minutes, and maybe the spell will pass.

Good luck.

 

Just found this video. I think he speaks truth. Might help with your triggers.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fd02B4Vlwog