Day 53

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Gm33, Oct 15, 2020.

  1. Gm33

    Gm33 Fapstronaut

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    Today is day 53 of no PMO. What a feat. Today is way better than yesterday. I had a visualization of me and a giant demon cigarette battling it out for control over the addiction. I won. I haven’t smoked today but I’ve increased caffeine and the urge to fap is huge. I’m on set working a television show at the moment and I feel like there’s hope that has been restored in an interesting way. My woman has yet to find out about my addiction and I believe I’m going to tell her the next time I see her. She means so much to me and she’s my inspiration for kicking the porn. It got too intense for me. I watched all of that really intense stuff. When I started getting diminishing returns, I would up the intensity of the porn. It eventually got to a point where I even started questioning my sexuality and my life. I’ve come to terms with the fact that I am an addict and all of those thoughts were a direct cause of my addiction. I love the fact that I’m no longer using PMO. It’s made me seen how disgusting I was being to myself. As I sit here waiting for my scene, I take a deep breath full of gratefulness and breathe out all negativity ready for another day of nofap.

    yours truly,
    Gman
     
  2. Fishn1

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    Keep it up, you've done great - more than a lot can say.
     
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  3. Gm33

    Gm33 Fapstronaut

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    Thank you. It’s tough but a bright future lay before me. I must conquer this.
     

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