Day 60!

Wow it feels weird being at Day 60. Mainly because school, work, and social life have kept me busy. I actually thought i was on like day 57 or 58 till i just checked my phone. I would definitely say there have been some improvements in my life. I've been hitting the gym 2-3 times a weeks since the second week of January and i've definitely noticed my body getting bigger.

Actually on Saturday i went to a concert and the artist told all the girls to get on someone's shoulders. I was a bit intoxicated but closer to being sober than drunk. I turned around and saw these two cute girls dancing behind me, I looked at them and said " do you want to get on my shoulders" one of the girls pointed to her friend and said "she does". So i put her on my shoulders. She was short and relatively thin. I'm 6'1 about 155. Part of me was scared i would lose strength or balance and she would fall. But I maintained a decent posture and had no issues in lowering myself down to let her get off. This is where squats at the gym come in handy. The workout helps with not only leg strength,but also balance. Would I have been able to do this before NoFap? Probably. But NoFap motivated me to go to the gym regularly and eat better which I am sure helped with my confidence. Before the two girls left, one of them wanted to let me know they were leaving. I took that as my sign to get her number. i did indeed get the number. I have yet to text her(debating in my head). But i figured she must be somewhat interested cause she put her name plus the concert that we met at in my phone and she let me know that she was leaving(I was listening to the music while facing forward watching the artists when she touched my arm to let me know, they were to the right of me and slightly behind).

I still struggle with overthinking and anxiety but i definitely have become better at returning back to frame whenever i get upset or lost in my head. I HIGHLY recommend the app Headspace, it provides structured meditation practice.