Day 64. -HELP- Huge depression, anxiety, no self-confidence and overeating.

Hello everyone.

I'm new to this forum.

I always thought that it's stupid to engage in nofap community. For a very long time I have been thinking that if I overcome the nofap challenge then I wouldn't engage in this community as it seemed for me pathetic to write about such problems and helping each other when in fact we all just want to be normal guys and leave the past away and the fact that we had such problems.
But I changed my mind. Here's why.

I'm 20yo. I had many various problems in life just like everyone of us had/have. I think that I was somehow addicted to oversexualized behaviors long ago. Even before I discovered edging I could just fap everyday under the shower thinking of fucked up things like sex with my aunt or even with men. I Haven't felt like I could be bisexual before I Started to fantasize that much so I really do think I'm fucked up. Nevermind.
Anyway, my toxic sexual behaviors lasted for over 6 years.
I lost my girlfriend, droppet out of college and now I'm staying at my patents' house where everything sucks.
I was really like a huge gamer in a porn addiction. FapMarathons were normal for me. It happened to me once that I even fapped literally 2 days. I almost wasn't drinking anything or eating. I even didn't had to. I just had no need for that. My brain was too connected to porn and fap.
For the last years I've been trying to overcome my addiction. I could never pasa more than 30 days. Then once I made around 50 days but eventually again I screwed up.



Now I'm on day 65 of reboot. What helped me is the K9webblocker and a huge motivation.
I have been feeling both extragood during the reboot and both bad.
For the last few days I feel like a extra shit. I can't even describe that. I feel like I have again no power over anything. I haven't had social anxiety for over 4 years but it came again from nowhere. I'm again kinda scared and distanced to people for no reason. Also I'm feeling a huge anxiety when it comes to doing anything challenging.

This last thing is a huge problem because I decided to find a job and tomorrow I have a meeting with potentially my new boss. I should learn something what he told me to learn for the meeting but it's so hard for me because this learning make me feel extra sad and anxiety.

And here is my question guys. Do you think that those are reboot symptoms or may this be something different or more complex ?

Also I have to add that I have no friends in the city where I live now and I feel extremally lonely. I don't go out very fotek but hey, that kind of life lasts for over 2 months and I have this sadness attack for only few days so idk.

Any ideas or suggestions ?


Btw sorry for my english. It's not my native language.


And also, I don't know if that's related but for over 2 months I haven't been drinking any coffee, tea or eat any fastfoods, sweets or anything like that but for the last few days I have a huge desire for eating this things and generally overeating and eating too much. I just eat and drink a lot of shitty things. It's not typical for me. I really put care on health and diet. I don't know what's happening to me..