Day 9 - Watched Porn But Did Not Touch Myself

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Sandscape97, Jun 19, 2020.

  1. Sandscape97

    Sandscape97 Fapstronaut

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    Hey Fapstronauts,

    I almost completely relapsed, but won out.

    After a productive day, I felt the sudden urge to watch porn. I watched my favorite kind for like ten minutes, just to feel the high, but did not touch myself at all. Strangely, I feel recharged in a way. I guess that was a bigger dopamine hit than I've been used to since starting on June 10th. My plan is to now use this charge of motivation and energy to get some more work done from home and make money with it!

    Has anyone unintentionally given themselves little hits of porn in the first few weeks of starting, but not fapped? I know this is dangerous and don't plan on making a habit out of it, but I'm proud of myself for fighting my hand away from my penis, even though the urge was incredibly strong. I feel winning this short battle is a sign that I'm getting stronger, not weaker.

    Thank you for your time

    P.S. I guess the day counter is now inaccurate since I did watch porn :(
     
  2. skaterdrew

    skaterdrew Fapstronaut

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    https://nofap.com/faq/what-is-a-porn-addiction-relapse/
     
  3. Feelslikezoom23

    Feelslikezoom23 Fapstronaut

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    I cannot watch porn and not relapse.... there’s a 99 % chance I will relapse if I see porn, especially when my hormones are ravaging
     
  4. Sandscape97

    Sandscape97 Fapstronaut

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    it's a horrible feeling to want to bust a nut but also want to stop watching porn. It's like torture.
     
  5. takezawa2

    takezawa2 Fapstronaut

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    I had a similar experience in one of my reboots. I remember opening up the lap top watching P for a minute then coming to my senses and closing it down. This would be considered a relapse. Since your goal is no PMO and you watched P you should reset. However- how is it possible to soley watch P without M and O??? The second i visit a site or view P i uncontrollably spiral!
     
  6. just keep going, you're fine
     
  7. takezawa2

    takezawa2 Fapstronaut

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    But he still should reset, because he’s been exposed to P. He’s interfered with the reboot. Dopamine detox. However yes, keep trying.
     

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