Day One of quitting PMO until I regain my normal sexuality.

nimbus123 · Mar 20, 2021

Ever since I was twelve I have started to become aroused and then watch porn. I have started out with straight and lesbian porn. However, as time moved on I started to watch transwoman porn with the fetish of a prostate orgasm, and after watching a lot of that, I started to watch gay porn and boy it turns me on. I feel a sense of extreme dread and confusion. I know that I was attracted to girls and I used to get semi boners while talking with them, but its all gone. I know that they look aesthetically better than men but I don't have any libido for them. Their soft faces, smile, and eyes gosh its soo pretty, but I can't seemed to get turned on by them. However, I had many crushes of girls and I have an intense one right now. (Never had a boner around dudes or crushes on them).

I know that I'm not 100% straight but I rank around 0-1 in the kinsey scale, but I think porn made me seek more taboo stuff (transgendered person porn doesn't give me that kick anymore that much). I also have noticed that when I quit porn for two days my attraction to women is gained somewhat.

I believe this is all porn induced and from today I will stop Porn, masturbation, and Orgasm to reboot myself. I am currently 18 years old. I will give updates along the way .

Randombro · Mar 20, 2021

I have the same story like you. Read the following threads, they helped me a lot (the last thread is from me)

https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...fetishes-a-complete-guide-for-freedom.283059/

https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/5-years-struggle-severe-hocd-transexual-porn.129195/

https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...porn-fantasies-and-others-not-help-me.304416/

1 month January- February streak, then relapse
1 month February- March streak, then relapse
March until yet streak (I kicked porn completely from my life and don’t want to pmo in my life again)

What I can say is that my fetishes and arousing for this fetishes dropped extreme and my attraction to women is in all time high.
I also have 0 desire for trans/gay porn.
My mind is also clear. Yet I know what I want and what I not want.
I am sure that I am completely straight and that porn addiction is responsible for the escalation to non-straight porn.
Meanwhile I get a instant hard boner when I see a hot girl
Sounds cringe but for me this is a good sign a sign for healing.
When I am horny, I don’t get this porn scenes anymore, I automatically began to fantasize about women on which I have a crush.
My brain is rebooting and cleaning from all this porn induced shit and this only week 3.
I think after day 90 I am completely clean.
Ask me anything when you have a question.
I am doing hard mode: NoFap, No Porn, NoSex, NoFantasy (which is the hardest part for me)

Uncle_Iroh · Mar 21, 2021

I can say one thing, do this and never go back, I assure you if you go back you will just get straight back to where you were when you quit, it's a sure thing. I believe if you are like me that you are probably straight, but porn twists the mind and like all addictions of any kind, they usually escalate and it's common for straight men and women to go seeking out gay/bi porn, it's the novelty, the excitement that comes from the taboo. If you are bi then that's cool, but I just thought I'd let you know how my situation went.

Good luck, stick at it, be patient and take it one day at a time.

Chug · Mar 21, 2021

Welcome to the rest of your life! I hope you do well with NoFap. As someone who also rates non-zero on the Kinsey scale, I can tell you that your attraction to females (and your mental perception of them) will be a million times better when you get the hell off of porn. But also don’t deny your SSA like I did for too many years...if that’s who you are, embrace it. Good luck.

nimbus123 · Mar 22, 2021

Guys so I’m done with my first day of no PMO. So far the hormones are starting to kick in so I’m bracing for it. So while I was watching anime, there was one hot girl I started to get a semi boner for, so I guess that’s a good sign. Also however, there was this one shirtless dude in a pose (not anime) that turned me on a little, but that’s it. I noticed that twinks don’t do it for me anymore but rather hunks so that’s a sign of porn progression I hope to reverse. More updates on the way!

ElSabio · Mar 22, 2021

Welcome! It's a tough road but it gets easier and the improvements will be real. Congratulations on making the choice to gain control of yourself. I will be watching for stories of your success and we are all rooting for you!

nimbus123 · Mar 23, 2021

Done with the second day. I had the urge to fap and I was really horny but I didn’t give in. My attraction to women is steadily increasing but for men it’s decreasing at a slower rate. I talked to my female friend and I had a boner while taking to her. I don’t get aroused by twinks that much but when I search up “men’s underwear” I get somewhat aroused. Not sure if this will go away or that I’m bi. Never really had an attraction to men before porn tbh.

ElSabio · Mar 23, 2021

Good going! Keep it up! The first month and a half was the worst for me but it's a thousand times better now. I'm a little over 60 days and every difficult moment was worth it!

Randombro · Mar 23, 2021

Maybe you connect pictures of „twinks“ with the high sexual content and pleasure from porn which is maybe the reason for the arousing.
You should not count days and check every day if there are changes.
Don’t watch porn, stop masturbating, fantasizing and checking.
Just live your life. After some weeks you will notice significant changes.

nimbus123 · Mar 26, 2021

I screwed it up. 5 days my first time but then the urges got too strong. However during those five days I noticed a big change. My attraction to regular men has decreased 5x and my attraction to women has increased 10x as well. I got hard fast seeing a hot woman in lingerie, and just a teeny arousal seeing a man in underwear or panties. Moreover, my feelings for my crush (a girl) grew 3x. I have a feeling I’m fully straight but porn has induced certain fetish I want to get rid off.
One thing I did was Satisfy my HOCD. I was keep on worried that whether my attraction to women increased and men decreased. I kept on looking at sexy women in lingerie and that kept me hard still but at a slower rate (however for men in underwear I did not feel a single tingle). However, I felt horny in the night and wanted to crave my prostate orgasm fetish. I played with my self anally to see any difference after abstaining and watched femboy and twink porn. That got me hard really fast. I always wanted a prostate orgasm since I was 12 but I was never able to get it and watching twink or transwoman people get it was a way for me to connect. I want to get rid of that forever hopefully by NoFap. Now I know I’m straight (if not bicurious) but Atleast I can feel love towards beautiful, soft women . From now, I’m gonna restart and not be worried whether I’m gay or straight (I know I’m straight) but I will conquer this challenge AGAIN.

nimbus123 · Mar 26, 2021

Just to make things a bit easier I orgasmed again (with lesbian porn) to start fresh.

Yours Truly · Mar 27, 2021

This my second day of nofap. I feel great about it. But this is like the hundredth time I'm trying this. I hope I'd be able to continue. I keep to myself alot. Nobody in my life knows I use porn a lot and as a result led to ED. I've been dealing with this in silence for a long time. I'm glad I found this platform. I seriously need your support. I realized I can't do this alone.

nimbus123 · Mar 30, 2021

Yours Truly said: ↑

This my second day of nofap. I feel great about it. But this is like the hundredth time I'm trying this. I hope I'd be able to continue. I keep to myself alot. Nobody in my life knows I use porn a lot and as a result led to ED. I've been dealing with this in silence for a long time. I'm glad I found this platform. I seriously need your support. I realized I can't do this alone.
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I relapsed again but let’s do this together!

Peiskos · Mar 30, 2021

What you're describing is PIED (Porn Induced Erectile Dysfunction) you've conditioned yourself to only get hard to the fetish related porn you are viewing. You've warped and conditioned your brain to get hard and aroused to things you otherwise normally wouldn't have been aroused by. The cure to this of course is a NoFap reboot, no touching down there whatsoever, only when peeing and bathing, no looking at anything either or fantasizing and masturbating.

You're smart for recognizing this problem at only 18, consider yourself lucky because most guys don't realize they have this problem until they're in their mid to late 20's..like I was.

If you stay strong and reboot the right way you'll be entirely healed to enjoy a healthy sex life for all of your 20's and beyond, good luck.

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