Day two, I am already struggling.

Day two and I am trying to maintain myself. Writing this down helps me a lot and knowing you guys are here to listen really gives me confidence. I thought yesterday I wouldn't want to do anything for the next three days but surprisingly that didn't turn out to be the case.

I am having a hard time concentrating on my daily tasks today. If it gets any worse later on I will just write a reply to this post. This is working so far.

 

Have to make another post, I am staring at a video of an attractive woman. Not P, she is not even doing anything suggestive. I think the thing is, when I get bored I am not sure what to do and this ends up being what I am doing most of the time. I am not touching myself but my goal is to only think about my girlfriend and look at only her photos that way.

Honestly, I cannot even close out of the video, I am not looking at it but it is in another tab because I just cannot bring myself to close it. I can find the video again but I don't know what is mentally making me not do it. Least I wrote about it and now I feel better.