Day zero

Where to start. I have a very strong addition to webcamming. Its been going on for over ten years with many failed attempts on my behalf to stop it. During the pandemic, i lost my sexual drive with my wife. Previously, it was never a problem. I could flip between the two worlds and have no issue. Working from home has resulted in me finding new ways to indulge and I would desperately like to break free. I have a friend who has blocked my home internet and my phone but overtime as I change provider its felt humiliating to keep having to ask. I will but I also wanted to try posting in here. Friends are not designed to hear someone else daily struggles but I thought if i posted in here and I tired to do it daily, it would help.