Dealing with judgement from other people

[CapnCookYo]

So the past year or so, I've been strictly working on my mental health and as a result, I haven't been able to hold down a stable job for very long. I have moderate-severe OCD, ADHD, clinical depression and I'm an all-around addict with everything that I do, specifically drugs and porn. My mental health has been effected greatly by my lifestyle and I brushed a lot of internal issues under the rug for years only to let them fester, now I'm at a point where mental rehabilitation and healthy living is my priority which means going to the gym, therapy, healthy eating, reading, self-care - the only thing I'm not doing that isn't "productive" is working, and it's because it stresses me out so much that I find it hard to balance all of the things I just listed. I want to work, but I feel I need to face my demons before I can get back on track with work. I'm aware of my capabilities and know what kind of course I'm on, my future goal is becoming a personal trainer/addictions counsellor and I'm technically working towards those at the moment anyways. Whats bothering me right now is because I've been living a more "straight-edge" lifestyle, I haven't been as social with someone of my friends and they haven't been understanding that I'm going through some mental health shit. I heard through another friend than one of my "friends" was talking shit about me and saying that I'm not good to be around because I can't hold a job and I'm "basically going nowhere and you should never take advice from me". I know thats complete bullshit because I'm a super rational person, and I wouldn't encourage someone to quit their job just "because", but I believe that if it's affecting your mental health and overall well-being severely, then you should take some time for yourself to heal.

It just upsets me that there are people who I considered good friends at one point who aren't supporting me in my struggle, it seems they only want me around when I'm the "happy-go-lucky life of the party". I guess when things get tough it really shows you who your real friends are, I guess this is a life lesson.

If anyone has any words of encourage or support that would be greatly appreciated, I need to keep moving forward and not let the petty bullshit bring me down.

Thanks.

CapnCookYo!

 

[the promise]

First the first throw youre ego to the trash , the ego makes us suffer it makes us think we deserve things because we do them honestly we dont deserve nothing take everything that happends to you as a blesing or as a lesson dont expect nothing at all 2 people will never understand what youre doing and explaining to them is wasting youre time is better to walk allone than to walk wrong 3 youre belives must only be youres if they are the same as someone else either means tothings or you want to be accepted or they want you to accept you ... We came at this world alone so go trhu with youre path if someone else follows thats a blessing

 

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So the past year or so, I've been strictly working on my mental health and as a result, I haven't been able to hold down a stable job for very long. I have moderate-severe OCD, ADHD, clinical depression and I'm an all-around addict with everything that I do, specifically drugs and porn. My mental health has been effected greatly by my lifestyle and I brushed a lot of internal issues under the rug for years only to let them fester, now I'm at a point where mental rehabilitation and healthy living is my priority which means going to the gym, therapy, healthy eating, reading, self-care - the only thing I'm not doing that isn't "productive" is working, and it's because it stresses me out so much that I find it hard to balance all of the things I just listed. I want to work, but I feel I need to face my demons before I can get back on track with work. I'm aware of my capabilities and know what kind of course I'm on, my future goal is becoming a personal trainer/addictions counsellor and I'm technically working towards those at the moment anyways. Whats bothering me right now is because I've been living a more "straight-edge" lifestyle, I haven't been as social with someone of my friends and they haven't been understanding that I'm going through some mental health shit. I heard through another friend than one of my "friends" was talking shit about me and saying that I'm not good to be around because I can't hold a job and I'm "basically going nowhere and you should never take advice from me". I know thats complete bullshit because I'm a super rational person, and I wouldn't encourage someone to quit their job just "because", but I believe that if it's affecting your mental health and overall well-being severely, then you should take some time for yourself to heal.

It just upsets me that there are people who I considered good friends at one point who aren't supporting me in my struggle, it seems they only want me around when I'm the "happy-go-lucky life of the party". I guess when things get tough it really shows you who your real friends are, I guess this is a life lesson.

If anyone has any words of encourage or support that would be greatly appreciated, I need to keep moving forward and not let the petty bullshit bring me down.

Thanks.

CapnCookYo!

Eventually we all learn that most people are Fair Weather Friends who won’t be there for you in a real jam. Those friends you can count on one hand.

Ignore the bullshit and the fake friend shit. You know what you’re about and do not require outside validation.