Decision to change

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Daggertail19, Aug 15, 2019.

  1. Daggertail19

    Daggertail19 Fapstronaut

    Hello, this is my first post on these forums. I have really been putting this off, maybe because I thought I could conquer this addiction without the communities guidance.

    I have been masturbating and watching porn for as long as I could remember. I even remember instances when I was very young (im talking like 6 years old) where I would see a belly dancer on my mom's tv shows and get aroused. That is just an example, but you get the point.

    I want to say the first time I masturbated to actual porn was when I was about 9 years old. Obviously I was too young for an erection, I still did it. The rest is history, I have been in and out of phases where I want to stop. I think the best streak EVER was 14 days, that was a long time ago. Very recently I went 7 days, and relapsed on day 7. The worst kind of porn I have ever masturbated to is bestiality. However that was a very long time ago and I do not watch any extreme porn. I have never had an experience with a prostitute ( I have thought about it, even gone as far as calling one). As far as how addicted to porn I am, I cannot say for sure.

    Now, the main reason that I am here is because I now suffer from PIED. At first I did not know why this was happening to me, the first time it happened was a year ago. To be honest, this website has not helped me with the anxiety that comes with this problem. I am constantly reading stories on how some people overcame PIED, and the time it takes for that to happen is making me more anxious. I am currently a college student living in a house with roommates, I should be having the time of my life right? WRONG. I have been here a year now and out of the 5 or so girls that I have hooked up with, I have had a problem with almost all of them.

    I guess I am looking for guidance or advice. I have a lot of anxiety, and I could confidently say that 90% of that anxiety comes from my PIED issue. I meditate daily, took up learning the guitar 3 months ago, read, smoke weed, go to the gym. However I feel like none of these activities help me focus on the now, my mind is always lingering and thinking about things like PIED for example. I want to stop watching porn and masturbating. That's really all there is to it.
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  2. Hello and welcome! :)

    We are glad to have you as a part of our community. Here are some quick links to get you started.

    Getting Started Guide | How to Use the NoFap Forums | Panic Button |Day Counter | Rebooting Resources|Forum Rules | Glossary

    If you wish to keep a journal of your progress you can do so in the appropriate section found here

    You can also take part in one of the many challenges available. It can be a tremendous help. Challenges

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    There are plenty of wonderful, friendly and knowledgeable people here to help you along on your journey to a life free of PMO. I wish you nothing but the best!
  3. Coffee Candy

    Coffee Candy Moderator Assistant Staff Member Moderator Assistant

    Heyyy welcome to the NoFap forum : ) It's nice to see you here fighting the good fight alongside us!

    Here is just some advice:

    First and foremost please take a look at each section in the forum, there might be something(s) you may find of big help to you. Feel free to post there :+)

    Then secondly I just strongly advise you to be active on your profile(as there quite a few active people in the profile section). Please start by choosing an avatar and then make daily status posts to show you're active and needing support/encouragement. They've also got a neat little feature that shows freshly posted statuses for all users to see. People will find your profile and give you encouragement/support.

    People (are beginning to) love communicating in the profile section..(it should be and is )mostly spportive talk but it doesn't hurt to deviate from supportive talk. It would be great to have you join in and support others in the threads, profiles, and journal, we could always use your help and in return you shall receive some as well!

    Thirdly, You should also highly consider creating a public journal and write about your days in more depth for us members to follow along your journey and offer support to you by way of posting in your journal.

    Last but not least: Good luck on your journey here, make sure to really give it a try with all your heart!
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