Hello, this is my first post on these forums. I have really been putting this off, maybe because I thought I could conquer this addiction without the communities guidance. I have been masturbating and watching porn for as long as I could remember. I even remember instances when I was very young (im talking like 6 years old) where I would see a belly dancer on my mom's tv shows and get aroused. That is just an example, but you get the point. I want to say the first time I masturbated to actual porn was when I was about 9 years old. Obviously I was too young for an erection, I still did it. The rest is history, I have been in and out of phases where I want to stop. I think the best streak EVER was 14 days, that was a long time ago. Very recently I went 7 days, and relapsed on day 7. The worst kind of porn I have ever masturbated to is bestiality. However that was a very long time ago and I do not watch any extreme porn. I have never had an experience with a prostitute ( I have thought about it, even gone as far as calling one). As far as how addicted to porn I am, I cannot say for sure. Now, the main reason that I am here is because I now suffer from PIED. At first I did not know why this was happening to me, the first time it happened was a year ago. To be honest, this website has not helped me with the anxiety that comes with this problem. I am constantly reading stories on how some people overcame PIED, and the time it takes for that to happen is making me more anxious. I am currently a college student living in a house with roommates, I should be having the time of my life right? WRONG. I have been here a year now and out of the 5 or so girls that I have hooked up with, I have had a problem with almost all of them. I guess I am looking for guidance or advice. I have a lot of anxiety, and I could confidently say that 90% of that anxiety comes from my PIED issue. I meditate daily, took up learning the guitar 3 months ago, read, smoke weed, go to the gym. However I feel like none of these activities help me focus on the now, my mind is always lingering and thinking about things like PIED for example. I want to stop watching porn and masturbating. That's really all there is to it.