deleted reddit for 6th time

its been close to a year since i started using reddit for my nofap and semen retention and unfortunately i found porn on reddit, so the asset turned to the biggest trigger source I've ever had. also there are some apps on play-store that i had been using since quite some time, on and off to talk with women and get some female attention that i was craving...(porn conditioning I'd say). something that was meant to help me (nofap reddit community),was acting as a gateway to my porn peeking (nothing against the community, it was my lack of self-control) i would read people trying to get rid of this evil destructive habit and would sometimes try out the things that they'd written. knowing full well that it would ruin me more. i don't really have friends and my conditioning was such that i had started approaching content sellers, for friendship(i.e hoping to get off to them someday; again my lack of self control, watching mems had become a bad habit too). the reason i used to get on reddit was dopamine detox that i have been trying after a few days, i start feeling bored and left out, in order to drive that feeling away i used to create a reddit account and then use it to surf porn, no doubt my sensitivity has definitely increased (just after a few days),but this ain't recovery, recovery is when one doesn't think about porn anymore-and unfortunately i still do.

i promise myself today that never again will i get back to reddit, at least till i cure myself of this disease, and that comprises of a complete 6 month abstinence from porn and a year long reddit fast I'd say. this is what i believe would restore my brain to a healthy condition. dating apps are a strict no this time, they've been masked as SITES TO GET TO KNOW PEOPLE, when in reality they're mostly just a source of disappointment and dejection.

 

this really hit hard
"Do you really want to waste all of your efforts fighting to better yourself and go back to the depressed and embarrassed individual with lack of confidence and self esteem and a mind clouded with guilt and dirty thoughts? No. Don't be selfish and ruin your streak. Live with the urge, it won't hurt you."

 

is at all possible, try getting off reddit completely, find alternative platforms online which focus on the same topic, i can guarantee you they'll be free from triggers, unlike reddit where literally everything from comments section to the posts is either vaguely pornograpic or wildly pornographic, both unhealthy for the recovery journey. other than some subs focusing on self development and growth, like nofap, SR, porn addiction sub, others have a lot of HIDDEN PORNO in them i.e they're either hinting at it or they're saying it directly.
rarely have i see people on reddit take things as they are, majority of subs are either propoganda or stand for some very well defined ideas (that's not a problem, it provides a good medium to learn and interact),problem happens when people get extremely vocal about things and refuse to even lend an ear to the other party, which generally happens.
regarding porno, i don't think there is any other site known by me which provides you with porn access so easily and with such varying categories ranging from whatnot to absolute weird fetishes. it has a lot of perks regarding the SR forum lot of valuable info and experience, which is tbh not really present on this platform as its aimed at something entirely different but the thing is that the negatives over there outweigh the positives causing the onset of random sexual thoughts and uncontrollable craving to go back to porn on several occasions, nofap is essential the practice of saying no to porn, and reddit proves to do exactly the opposite, not like the viewer is not at fault, but during the initial recovery days, the willpower is not that strong causing the chaser effect and dejection and wasting a lot of time online.

 

its not just about the content my dear friend, its about the comment section too which sometimes has triggering content