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Deleted snapchat for good, but i feel like shit now wtf

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by SuperLulox, Dec 21, 2016.

  1. SuperLulox

    SuperLulox Fapstronaut

    Like most people here, im adicted to masturbation, and porn.
    But worse than those, is my adiction to sexchat. I have spent hours in those random chat sites looking for whatever, and thats a really old habit. Ive skyped with too many random girls, and it fucked me up.
    A few months ago i started skyping and snapchatting with this girl. She was really submisive, and would do everything (and i do mean everything) i told her to do. My last 2 relapses where with her, since its far easier to rationalize snapchat than porn websites.
    Just now (im on day 14) i downloaded snapchat again, and texted her. But this time i told her that i had a problem and that she didnt help at all, so i wasnt gonna talk to her again. She screenshoted the conversation (wich was creepy) and said "Okay, bye", although i know she is not okay with it since last time i tried to tell her the same thing she started crying.
    I didnt answer and i blocked her, and i think i did the right thing. But now i feel bad, and im not sure why. I feel empty and i have this need to text her back and tell her im sorry and that shit. I think my brain is tricking me into thinking i really do care about her, but i know i dont. Everytime i relapsed to her, as soon as i came i found an excuse and got off my phone, couse i didnt want to talk with her.
    I feel lonely tho, and it makes me mad.
    I hope i did the right thing
     
  2. D . J .

    D . J . Fapstronaut

    You did the right thing.
     
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  3. You did the right thing, indeed. High chance the girl doesn't even care about what you've been through. And now you're 14 days free from PMO!! ( I suppose lol ). Congratulations!
     
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  4. ILoathePorn

    ILoathePorn Distinguished Fapstronaut

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    Congrats! I too believe that you did the right thing. It is your brains way of trying to get you to give it the rush it wants. YOU are in control of your brain and YOU tell it what to do. Keep up the great work!!

    Stay strong!!
     
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  5. NickyP

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    I have a problem with the same apps. I think many of the women (girls?) on there are highly susceptible to manipulation (like us) and probably suffer from severe addictions of their own (like us).

    I suspect this is why you have real feelings for the snapchat girl, because you empathize deep down. If you do relapse and download the app, point her to nofap.com and wish her luck, then delete it again. You do not want to continue interacting with someone who pulls you away from rebooting.
     
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  6. SuperLulox

    SuperLulox Fapstronaut

    Youre absolutly right, but i posted this a while ago and since that i relapsed one time again with her. I learned my lesson tho, i deleted my account and friend scared her away telling her we had a child together and blah blah..
    Anyways yes, this girls are as fucked up as we are (this one in particular had a mental dissorder i cant remember right now) and its allways really sad after the hot stuff. I tried to get her on NoFap but i ended up using that conv as an excuse to relapse. Im on day 27 now so i wont risk it again with that shitty app
     
  7. NickyP

    NickyP Fapstronaut

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    How did you make it 27 days?

    It's been 5 days since I relapsed with random cha, but it's because I've been too busy with work and friends to have a chance. I'm terrified of the days to come where I may have an opportunity to relapse. How are you doing it? There are people waiting for me to respond on the chat apps and I just CANNOT re download and do it, but man this is tough.
     
  8. PaFappa the Rapper

    PaFappa the Rapper Fapstronaut

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    You feel bad because at the end of the day we're all people with our own problems and feelings. So you empathize. You're a human being.

    But you have to end these things kind of coldly and don't look back. My last relapse was with a woman I was sexting with on Facebook who was the same, up for anything. It's extremely tempting. But I had to block her, block her cell, and that's it. Deactivating Instagram, and only keeping Facebook for work related stuff which I do need it for. It sucks but the rewarding part is that at some point you'll be able to connect in real life with an actual human. I feel like more and more people on here are like you and myself, where it's not just porn we're addicted to, more than anything it's online relationships. GOOD LUCK BROTHER!!
     
  9. NickyP

    NickyP Fapstronaut

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    You're right about the cold turkey thing-I MUST DO IT. This is inspiring to read. BUT I'm terrified of going back into the sext app I used even to delete the contents and change the password to something scrambled. I'll see the conversations and new messages for me.
     
  10. You did the right thing, yes. The girl you speak of is probably in a similar position to you, but you can't really help her. You both need to seek help (if you want it) from places that won't make it harder.
     
  11. PaFappa the Rapper

    PaFappa the Rapper Fapstronaut

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    If it's something you have to log back into, do it when you're invulnerable, don't even look, and mechanically deactivate that shit like you're a machine carrying out a task, and don't look back!
     
  12. Fork2323

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    Cant you block the ap store so you cant re-download it? Im on android and my blocker blocks their store, it also has a timer that turns off facebook at 10pm when im more vonerable at night. I know on ipones too you can have parental controls block the ap store.. problem solved..
     
  13. NickyP

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    Hmm interesting but I need to use the app store for other reasons. My parental controls on my iphone are locked with a password I can't remember anyway. It blocks P very well, but not apps.

    Has anyone else had success disabling certain apps with methods other than parental controls?

    @PaFappa the Rapper that will be the plan as of now, thanks.
     

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