Deleting 90GB+ of Porn ~ On your request!

This Porn has one of the greatest clips, I used to consider great since I started the addiction.

Last year I put it inside a USB and promissed not to use it anymore... I did break that!

Now I need your advice on two things:

2 Months ago I brook my NO PMO Journey for two reasons:

1) I managed to graduate and finally got an MBA / Master Degree in Business Management and Finance.
So I said to myself...why not! ( using the same USB!)

2) I brook around 300+ Days due to a Sex Request witha prostitute from someone very close to me, I got confused whether to accept or reject the offer...

I rejected it, But The Idea of having sex with a prostitute still got me, As I know Sex with someone you don't know is like using someone as a Sex Object, No Emotions involved! I had to use my imagination and imagine how this sex is supposed to be as it looks like Porn to me, Sex with a prostitute is similar to the sexual Porn and what these Porn Actresses does - They are prostitutes at the end...


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Besides Getting Married - there is NO Other option or Relief along the way, I can't get married for now, I'm not yet prepared yet.

What do you think ?

It's two options - a Successful Career or PMO Junkie!

I'm still feeling this Brain Fog... This thing is not healthy at all...


Again, which one is better Stock inside a Hardrive or Just delete it immediatly!

It's a mixed up clips ~ I liked way back in my early addiction times since 2010 - 2011. It's almost all the clips I've been watching - and these are compiled clips of my favourite Clips and Movies ( I used to buy online... ) - Deleting this will hurt me a lot especially after a long steak of NOFAP.

I got addicted around 2010.

I'll buy today the book Your Brain on Porn and Go read it immediatly...

What about the Prostitution ? As 28 years old virgin still frustrates me, the shame of being a virgin... How can I cope with that ?


#Your Opinion Matters to me - Thanks for Reading!

 

I can feel the Brain Fog - It's like I'm stoned...

I relapsed this month after 8 Day of NoFap due to some weird Stomach pain with the feeling of Anger, I took a 10 Days - Of Porn Vacation Immediatly... Felt good...Really good...Nothing but a crappy addiction, I feel like a Street Junkie now - Addicted to the worst drugs...

 

The Delete Button - Is Enough, I could use it again, Haha.

Thanks for your reply, I'll wait for other responds.

 

After several thoughts...

I Just bought two External Hard Drives.

1) The first one has 1000 GB - Only for Skills and My Future Career, I'll be buying online courses as soon as possible, learning new skills.

2) A Second one with 500 GB - I'll just save up this Crappy 90GB in it, and go hide it somewhere in our old house, Deleting thr 90GB from my USB and putting into a Dirty Hard Drive I just bought.

Why I couldn't - delete it ?

- There are certain thing bought online, I know I couldn't find anywhere...

I guess saving them inside a Hard Drive, and hating P would be a nice nove for now.


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About getting married - I think I'm not ready for it yet for several reason one of them is that - I think I still haven't found the real woman that will share the same opinion about me about the future of our family and generally speaking the philosophy of life.

 

The problem starts with this:

There is no Sexual Life in my Life, Either it's Celibacy for a whole year or PMO for a numbered days and than going back to NoFap for many days.

There is no alternatives, I don't see no Future, If I go No PMO - I could go that way for a long time, Might blow up someday or lose my mind, as it is really hard going No Sex Life for many years...

My body hurts and my stomach hurts and my mind goes on the anger mode...

I might calm down myself for a year or so, but not for many many years... The only option I can use for release would be P at the end of the day.

When I wrote this thread I was on the break of deleting it, than again I remembered that I will end up needing it again maybe not now but in a year or so...Plus I bought the Online Stuff Expensively.

I will go on the Hard / Monk Mode again - I will do it again for 300 days+ - After hitting my Goal.
But there is no alternatives either... - I don't live in the Western World.

 

But one thing I can Assure you!

Porn is Really Bad and Ugly!
And I don't like it either - I'm saving it and I'm starting my NoFap Journey for a long year once again until hitting a Financial Goal I made and few other Goals.

I'll just hide that sh*tty Dirty Hard Drive and Go Learn new skills with the NoFap Extremely Monk Mode.

I'll make it, I already did...

About PMO, I didn't relapse... I choosed to relapse on purpose! I success in graduating, I had nothing else to do besides celebrating...

In my country - Girls don't sleep with guys during their graduation day!

 

I guess your right, I better stay off that sh*t. Focus more on success!

Thanks for your advice.