You obviously do not understand a single thing about clinical depression. Cut that "man up" bs out. Attitudes like that are exactly the reason why we're still losing people to depression every single day, and why most suicides are still committed by men who suffer in silence because they fear reaching out thanks to people like you and humiliating reactions such as yours. Depressed men are neither feminine nor weak. Depression is neither unmanly nor a character flaw. It is a well-researched serious illness that more often than not ends deadly, and you cannot pull yourself out of severe depression just through determination and "manning up". I also wanna remind you that you're 19. So wtf are you even talking about, "you wanna be a man?", "finish this right of passage", and earning your respect like you're some experienced 60 year old man who's been through all the trials and tribulations of life. Sorry for being so frank, but you don't know jack shit about life at 19. You're not even biologically a man, yet, you're a teenager. I think you might have seen one too many fast and furious tough guy movies.