Depression/anxiety -> PMO or PMO -> Depression/anxiety?

I believe stress caused me to pmo from a young age with low self esteem and a shit job. But the more I pmoed the depression sunk in it is slowly going now.

 

I find mine as a stress relief because of some stressful times I am going in right now. It makes me "feel" good about myself. Hence the chemical inside our brain called dopamine. Which is the "feel good" chemical that makes us want to conquer the world, lol. But reality hits you hard once you hit adulthood because now when I look back on every child out there who is being raised by their parents I know that is what the law requires for them at that young age to be raised and taken care of but once they hit eighteen they hit reality and get kicked out of the house. Or become homeless or with a mental disorder.

 

A bit of both, as PMO got worse so did any underlying anxiety and as the anxiety got worse so did the lure of escape and resistance

Btw have you heard of Eckhart Tolle? I ask because you say that you think you are pathetic, which is very harsh on yourself, does that thought motivate you? Or does it make you sad? A bit of both? Do not be too attached to labels

Here's a couple of videos, the message is awareness, mindfulness

 

It's a vicious circle I think. Depression etc can make you use PMO to get rid of the stress/feel alive/get rid of sexual frustration.
In turn this makes it harder to get out of the depression/get girls which then feeds the addiction even more making things even worse.
As soon as your dopamine then gets desensitized it gets even worse because your motivation/positive emotion etc will just get lower and lower..

 

PMO makes me depressed because I can't move past one day

 

It's chain reaction. For example start with PMO - PMO>Anxiety/depression>more PMO>more anxiety/depression... and so on. On the other hand if you are addicted - Anxiety/Depression>PMO>...>...
Like I said it's a never ending cycle. If you remove PMO from that cycle, it will definitely stop, mmm right?

 

I was able to abstain from PMO for 2 years once. It seemed that abstaining flattened the ups and downs in my mood, but the average mood was still a little depressed. It might have helped more with the anxiety, but I'm not certain.

 

For me it was PMO that made me anxious which caused me then depression…