Depression, possible flatline?

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Hey! I'm a 22 year old male trying to abstain from PMO for as long as I can. I've been a masturbation addict since the very young age of about 5 years old (yes... seriously) and have been looking at porn since about the age of 11, and have recently decided to quit both these things, as well as orgasms, since I don't have a wife or anything.

Anyways... I'm currently on day 30 and this is by far my longest streak until now. I seriously can not remember staying more than 7 days without an orgasm ever since I started masturbating. I am very proud of myself for achieving so much, and I am not planning on giving up!

The thing is... I've been feeling very depressed in the last 9 days or so... like no motivation or interest in doing anything at all. I have had episodes of diagnosed depression in the pastand they felt exactly the same as I'm feeling right now. I'm currently on a break from my work, so I don't know if this could have anything to do with it (although I don't really like my job and really wanted to get a break), but I wonder if these can be symptoms of a flatline. last night I felt some strong urges, but managed to resist them, and today I feel even more unmotivated to do anything than most days prior. I usually feel way better and more motivated at night, but tonight that didn't happen (I'm writting this at 00:50 am) and it sucks, because the night has usually been the best part of my days since I feel much better. I also have a lot of brain fog and am having a hard time to even find words when I'm talking to people.

I am really wondering if this could be a flatline, since I never stayed that long without PMO. Does someone know if this is really a flatline or if this could be something unrelated?

Thx guys.
 
Reading your experience above twice. I can only come to the conclusion that flatline is different for everyone. I do talk to some with similar experiences like me, but you say you develop a depressed mood after time off PMO. Never have really. Even those who i spoke with, flatline was always a blank state to them. Kind-of uncertainty.

But then again. A key factor is how you define depression. State of being sadden by something (action or thought). Many different views on depression as a whole.

It could be flatline. For me lack of motivation to do anything cannot occur, because I try to be and mostly are active, or I try to sleep (and fail without alco or quil). There is a thread I came across that described flatline and it gave some tips for managing through and the aftermath which is a like sudden urge-wave. Might be loss now because that was in 2018.

The more I think on it. The more it seems to be flatline. Too many factors pointing at it. Just a variation to what I experience.
 
Forgot to mention. To me flatline can occur the day after I PMO, or about a week to two. From previous recorded, the experience lasted about 2 months. Ut like i mentioned above, i was busy doing something. Most of time would have been in work or school. I guess i developed something to work against tue demotivation part.
 
Loving Loveless said:
Forgot to mention. To me flatline can occur the day after I PMO, or about a week to two. From previous recorded, the experience lasted about 2 months. Ut like i mentioned above, i was busy doing something. Most of time would have been in work or school. I guess i developed something to work against tue demotivation part.
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What's your longest streak? Did flatline occur for you, one day after masturbation to porn?
 
My longest streak, was off this forum. around 250 days. I had stop counting because progress was steady. Flatline after one day :emoji_expressionless:... yes. I've experienced it many times. It sort of led to these 30 days, 60 days streaks that I had. My previous longest streak was around 120 in 2018 to 2019 New Years. I left in March on 2019, because everyone in the circle I was a part of on Nofap, was gradually leaving (Simply put, my support was leaving the forum). Made lots of 35 days, 50 days without PMO. Came back in March of last year, started this bat-crap account and logged a counter. Left again because even those who had their accounts here, was not active, so I left my account dormant as well. Made the 250+ streak during that time.

To give you an example of my flatline... I was in that 'A-sexual' state for about 4 months.
NO drive, no desire. Little thought of S. Was honestly deep in my degree and work as well. The nickname Loveless had actually become a thing of the past, the year group that named me that, was all scattered throughout the world. I basically had to influence for S or PMO. I had no P-blockers or anything because, to me these apps remind you that you are an addict. My focus was elsewhere that's all.

Would I prefer this state? Maybe. I am generally an idiot in this phase, because I tend to not tolerate Bullcrap. But the most unrelated life progress, was me in flatline. And how do you know? Let's say a lady tries to flirt with me. I detect it and I somehow end it right there. That's how deep my flatline can become.
 
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