Derobe Progress thread

Discussion in 'Self Improvement' started by derobe, Mar 16, 2017.

  1. derobe

    derobe Fapstronaut

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    I'm a self confident person.

    I don't even enjoy it sometimes. I do it through frustration and boredom often.

    My lifestyle goals are important to me which is why I want to get rid of porn.

    I didn't go out today, I wanted to be alone and wanted to avoid social interaction. I forced myself to do some however I didn't enjoy it.

    I will hit my goals.
     
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    Day 1 - 17 March 2017.

    Let's see what I can do.

    Focus currently on organising myself so I'm more efficient and productive.

    Having systems in place for my business so I can do more on autopilot and not get caught wondering, a morning ritual, fitness schedule, more social time as well.
     
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    derobe Fapstronaut

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    66 days without PM thats the first goal. No P or M - O is fine as long as it's with a partner.
     
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    Day 3 - going well.. Looking at girls again as normal and sexually attracted.

    Been very productive. Head in business. Focus, planned, organised.
     
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    Day 5 I relapsed, went on a two day viewing streak...

    Then cooled off for a few days without too much effort. I'm mostly focused and excited about business, so staying away from porn is easier.

    I haven't felt too many negative effects if I'm honest. I have to look at it and see if it's actually something I can do healthily, e.g watch porn.

    I think the main danger is that it usually is fetishes, although not too too harmful (not into really dark stuff) - it still is away from normal sexual encounters with partners. I have slept with about 5 or 6 different partners in 4/5 month period. One is a regular. I have had issues with ED with a few partners, although certainly nerves, there have been occasions where I've managed to perform and 2 or 3 where I've had to call it a night.

    If I see porn as the root cause of possible ED, I will probably be more encouraged to totally give up.
     
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    Busy with setting up a CRM for my business. Have pmo'd too. Being in front of a computer all day plus being horny, however such focus is on my business it doesn't have seemed to have got in the way too much, however I think it may have a much bigger effect when I am out and about again for business. Because of this I am implementing things in place such as a solid morning ritual that stimulates me mentally and physically for the day.

    Things going well.
     
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    Binge day yesterday. Again I already know the effects, depleted energy and enthusiasm which is important for regular motivation and being the best version of ones-self. Self-esteem always takes a hit, the more this is recognised the easier it is to deal with. I have to forgive myself and do some mental work quietly. I haven't thought too much about meditating, my surroundings are often distracting although I could plug in headphones with a noise app.

    Cleaning ones room, washing bedsheets, doing laundry - I find these things all contribute to a needed clean slate where goals can be reset and refocused on and action can begin after a big binge.

    One unfortunate thing is, you lose muscle when pmo'ing and probs just testosterone in general. I think it may also affect sebum and hair growth. But definitely some muscle mass and ability to tense muscle and strength is lost after a binge especially. I do have physical goals to hit too, so this must be taken into account.
     
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    Really been in the depths of regular porn viewing again and noticing negative effects. Foggy brain, loss of energy, lack of motivation. More to come.
     

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