Desire to Clean after Relapse

I've noticed an interesting trend that typically happens almost immediately after relapse and persists for a day or more afterwards. I have an outstanding desire to clean EVERYTHING. My room goes from being okay to being spotless within a matter of hours, it's kind of an OCD tendency almost. I feel dirty and my whole room feels filthy to the point where I can hardly stand it.

I think this might have an intriguing psychological backdrop to it. I feel like it might be because I see PMO subconsciously on some level as being 'dirty' or 'unclean', and so a relapse gives me the desire to do a deep clean of...well, myself.

Has anyone else experienced this? Thoughts?

 

I used to do this as well after a PMO relapse. I think you nailed it.

 

I've done this multiple times. It also gives a relaxing feel that you're doing something productive after being a lazy sloth. What you need to do instead is that you clean as well or even better while you're on a nofap streak. It's even more rewarding that way.

 

This. This is exactly how it feels. I just feel so unclean and like I need to wash the PMO off of me and everything around me. Yeah, it would be hard to understand if it wasn't something you had, but that's true with anything. Hell, this addiction in general is probably hard to understand for people that don't have it.

Glad to see I'm not the only one.

 

Do not relapse......but if you do, can you stop by my house? I have cleaning supplies, no need to bring your own.

I would feel this way before also but it was just myself. I felt like I needed a shower to be clean again.