your in a feedback loop already you have HOCD thoughts are already coming. all im saying is ask 2 simple questions each time you get the thoughts that are coming anyways. The feedback loop that your in right now keeps saying on a subconscious level that your afraid your gay. that's how your leaving it unanswered. with these two questions your adding to the loop will help you leave the situation every time with an answer based on facts that over time will make your subconscious aware weather you are gay or not, so you wont obsessed or have the thoughts because you'll know on a subconscious level your gay or your not.