Detailed story of a 24 year old virgin who is addicted to hardcore anal sex

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  1. Leon F

    Leon F New Fapstronaut

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    Hello everybody,

    here I want to share my story and my goals.
    I am 24 now and started watching porn at 13 or 14. The only kind of porn I ever masturbated to was anal sex. The porn got more hardcore over time. Since a few years it also became important to me that the male performers have big dicks, probably making me a bit ashamed of my normal sized penis.

    This year I wanted to have sex with a hooker to see how this unknown situation feels for me, and I found out I cannot get an erection. I went to a hooker once more and tried to have sex with a girl three times this year, always unable to get an erection (except when rubbing my dick against her ass lol, but when I wanted to start normal intercourse, the erection quickly vanished).

    The consequence of having this extreme ass/anal fetish is that I don't find vaginas sexually appealing at all, even though I am 100% heterosexual. it even feels uncomfortable looking at a vagina.

    I am trying to stay away from porn for a very long time now without succes. It took me many month until I was able to not masturbate for seven days in a row, but I think this was lucky because I didn't really get horny during that time.
    I never managed to not masturbate when I got really horny, even though I am trying this for about a year.
    It feels almost impossible to me to supress my sexuality, I always end up in this trance state where I forget all my ambitions.

    I am not sure which goal I should set for myself. A 90 day reboot would be awesome but feels almost impossible. I also thought about forcing myself to masturbate to pictures of a vagina for example, to try and rewire my sexual preference. Any ideas?

    I hope you guys have some motivation and tips for me so I can finally start healing my sexuality.

    Best regards,
    Leon
     
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  2. @Leon F ,

    Hey! Welcome to NoFap. You have found a great community and the right program for success.

    You introduction was very good and similar to my own experience. As more and more "perfect" images from online porn flooded my brain, real life sex became almost impossible to achieve. PIED and DE followed as my brain got stubborn and demanded online porn images to get an erection. Real life sex just couldn't compete.

    Here is a link to the new members resources page https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/new-users-list-of-rebooting-resources.50878/

    I recommend starting with the "Getting Started with NoFap" guide. It's free and the link to download it is on the resources page and the NoFap homepage.

    The glossary is also very helpful, I have it bookmarked. Be sure to read up on PIED in both the getting started guide and the glossary.

    And the video is amazing - the link is also on the resources page.

    Please know you are not alone and that we want to keep hearing from you,

    L
     
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  3. @Leon F ,

    Forgot to mention. 90 days is possible. But, for me it also seems daunting. I'm taking it one day at a time. I didn't pmo today and don't plan on pmo tomorrow. That has worked for several 24 hours in a row.

    L
     
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