I used to masturbate to porn often for years without noticing any iasues. Between the age 22 and 24 i started fantasizing about getting fucked brutally (raped/humiliated) as a women, i also started to become less interested in ordinary sex. I am ok with my male body, i like my dick (it's big), i do not want to live a transsexual lifestyle. I am still dissatisfied with certain aspects of my body and while i remember being unconfortable with my body sometimes when i was younger it wasn't really something i suffered from. Currently i masturbate often, i have tried abstaining (sometimes more than 30 days) but it made me neurotic. Abstaining from porn is easy for me but i still watch it sometimes sincs i am not motivated to quit it (tried to cut it out, never got results i wanted). I usually just use my powerful imagination since it's hard for me to find porn i like, i get annoyed when the actor has a smaller dick than me (usually the case). I do think i'm heterosexual so i probably just have autogynephilia, in my case transitioning would not give me what i want since it wouldn't allow me to get pregnant. I do not believe there your soul has any innate gender, the "born in the wrong body" narrative doesn't make any sense to me. Homosexual people tend to have characteristics of the opposite gender but they typically do not want to live as transgender, most of time accept their bodies.